Trying to stay alive is different at every age

I'm finding it much harder to face the days in my life with my children (and grandchildren) living so far away. It's true I can afford to visit them but it's also true I'm now 76 and traveling too far can be difficult to recover from, especially if I went somewhere like Europe or Asia. I sort of promised myself I wouldn't travel to Asia again after it took me one month to get over jet lag for example. I think if Biden hadn't been sick or jet lagged (both) he might have been okay in that debate. However, I don't think he could have won the election against Trump even if he had won that debate at age 80.

It's true people are living to 90 or 100 and I know people 90 to 100 years old and my step father in law lived until 98 and my wife's father lived until he was 90 and my mother lived until she was 90 also.

The point I'm trying to make here is that trying to stay alive is different at every age. But, in some ways the struggle is equal at every age just in different ways.

In my early 20s the struggle was actually just choosing to stay alive which was solved for life by getting married and my first child a son being born.

In my 30s the struggle was actually women interested in me more than anything else but I was married at the time so this wasn't going to work because I was married.

In my 40s once again the issue was trying to stay alive through a divorce and custody battle which I solved by marrying a good lady who helped me through all of this and then when I almost died from a heart virus she helped me through this too.

Since this, the challenge has been to find a way to stay alive medically through everything since around 1998 and 1999.

However, worrying about staying young I don't worry about anymore. I'm mostly just grateful for each day I have with my wife and hope to see my children soon. I saw my oldest son in September and one of our children is flying here for Christmas too and my older biological daughter should be here around Christmas some time too with her husband and baby. So, I will see at least 2 of my biological children around Christmas this year which is good.

However, my wife just had an operation and that is always hard to deal with because of the recovery from various operations along the way. After you are 50 or 60 almost anything can go wrong and you might need replacement parts along the way too.

Like I have a defibrillator pacemaker which will start my heart if it stops and I just had another tooth implant installed in the last month by an oral Surgeon. So, I too am getting more replacement parts in my own way.

I think surviving from age 50 to 64 is the hardest thing because most people cannot afford full health insurance. By the time I was 64 I was paying 1800 a month for full medical insurance.

How many people can afford that and still eat and pay their rent or mortgages? So, for this reason I wonder how people make it from age 50 to 64 without going bankrupt trying to take care of their health here in the U.S.?