when I read what I wrote around 1999 to about 2005 or 2010 I see an amazing hope and idealism

So, for me reading these things I have written or better said: "That God has written through me for his purposes" gives me hope once again. 

I find as a 77 year old now hope is hard to find for any humans on earth, especially because we see all the signs of what happened just before the Great Depression and World War II starting in 1929 happening again here on earth through misguided people like Trump and other crazy and greedy people on earth who don't really care how many lives they end or destroy in other ways.

So, Hope is hard to find I find today in this insane era we presently live in.

However, I am also fine because God always takes care of me and my family in Amazing Ways!

By God's Grace