Getting used to being alive again

This might seem kind of crazy to most people. However, it is a normal reaction to having your life saved when you think you might die for short or longer periods of time.

For example, I believed I might die on January 4th in the emergency room where I almost died then. Then I was put on a liquid diet of mostly Chicken Broth and Jello and maybe fruit juice to where I was pretty spaced out for 5 days until I discovered Protein drinks that I was allowed to eat too so within 24 hours my more normal sensibilities came back somewhat. However, I still was mostly on a liquid diet for the next month or so of these protein drinks and a few other things. Then we tried to schedule a Naval Hernia surgery as soon as possible sometime in February. However, we weren't able to get an appointment to do this until March 25th and even then we had to get my cardiologist to sign off on this so I could have the operation that would keep me alive. So, as you can see whether I lived or die through to December of 2026 was kind of iffy at best.

It's true everyone is different but I tend to practice the pioneer motto of "Prepare for the worst and hope for the best" which in this case means "Preparing to die and hoping I don't die" at the same time.

However, think about this for a moment I didn't know if I was going to survive starting January 4th and wasn't even having this operation until March 25th and then the anesthesia from intubation which is necessary for Robotic Hernia Surgery didn't wear off for about a week and then the recovery time from an operation like this is 6 weeks (even though I had no pain after the first week). However, even then I couldn't get up out of bed without help from someone so I didn't tear my internal stitches from the robotic hernia surgery. So, then the recover time from March 25th 2026 would be May 6th 2026.

So, we are now a couple of weeks after that.

So, physically I guess I'm recovered. However, I have lost about 25 pounds and want to lose even more because that would be better for my health long term.

But, what are we missing here? I prepared to die in case I did psychologically. How do you undo that and accept you aren't going to die right now or this year?

I suppose the answer to this might be different for every person.

However, psychologically at least I'm still getting used to being alive again!

It's great to be alive!

By God's Grace