Dealing with one's sexuality between ages 12 and 30

Often during these ages sexuality gets caught up in suicidal thoughts and obsessions on or with people in one's life. Though the reason biologically this happens is: procreation of the human race it often also results in many deaths and suicides and murders because of people being obsessed with each other and feeling they cannot live without the object of their affections.

However, in reality this is just a part of your biological necessity to make you procreate and if you do not procreate sometimes this is bad too in sort of the way not eating, not breathing, not defecating and not urinating is.

So, understanding what it all is and not just some sort of horror movie you are trying to live through and survive in real life might be useful.

So, understanding why one is having these experiences allows one to survive these experiences.

Basically, no matter what it feels like now you are going to survive with or without any or all people, no matter what this feels like right now.

My rule of thumb as time went on from about 21 to 24 was: "No matter what horrific thing I'm experiencing internally right now, if I just wait about 6 weeks likely I'll be somewhere new in consciousness.

And, what to me is kind of scary about this was: "Compared to most males my age I was getting laid a lot from 1969 (I was 21) to 1973 (I was 25) and then I got married and had my son a month after I turned 26. But, the idea that "No matter how much I wanted to kill myself from ages 21 to 25 I decided logically that if I just waited 6 weeks something new would be going on in my life. And this was true. Either I had made another girlfriend that I needed to stay alive for or I was climbing some new mountain with friends and laughing. Or I was riding my motorcycle across the deserts laughing or I was skiing down a mountain with friends laughing. So, no matter how bad it might get, life was still pretty good at times. Because I took my life in my hands and followed my heart no matter what anyone said to me about living some other way. Don't listen to them. Stay alive by following your heart. Follow your passion. It is the only thing that's going to keep you alive long term.