Man UP Fred!

The is a story based upon what might happen eventually if you become a natural shaman as a young person and still stay alive through all this to 30 or more years of age.

My mother was going deeper into senile dementia. In the old days people wouldn't survive very long with this because there would be no one to care for them. But, in modern day societies sometimes they do today. My mother was diagnosed with senile dementia from just after 9-11-2001 until she passed away in fall of 2008. My mother was an intuitive like me and one of the problems for me as her only son was that her supernatural gifts no longer had any useful boundaries of any kind.

So, was very hard for me to deal with all this. Because of this experience I have often thought if I went down a path like this that I should take my own life because I could be not only physically dangerous because I'm 6 foot 5 inches tall and strongly built but also supernaturally dangerous as well if I had no ethics or boundaries in place. However, I presently believe God won't let it go that way because he has other plans for me.

So, one day I called up my best friend who got a master's degree in History of religion from UCLA in the 1970s specializing in Buddhism and Sanskrit. So, he is very gifted like me in addition to being a brain and an intellectual too.

I explained to him how my mother was coming to me at night supernaturally and cording with me around my heart area with a silver cord. I was really scared at first until I realized it was her. Then I was scared for other reasons (like my mother had no supernatural boundaries at all because of senile dementia).

My friend said to me, "Man UP Fred! You need to let your mother cord with you because she is scared and has no boundaries. You need to help her until she dies."

Though I actually agreed with him this was very difficult for me to endure. However, I was strong enough in my life then to do this for my mother. As she got weaker and weaker and regressed down into a more and more childlike state (because senile dementia and alzheimers are ALWAYS fatal) she pulled on me less and less and reached out more to the heaven realms.

Sometimes when I visited her in her facility (the best in this county) she would be having an ecstatic experience in a heaven realm. One time another friend of mine who my mother had known and I had known in church since I was about 6 years old,  who was about 60 then or so (a few years older than I at the time) came to visit her and she was ecstatic with the angels. I felt like I was intruding in the room because of the sacred nature of where she was at in this ecstatic place.

However, later I realized God was simply preparing my friend for death a few months hence at that point. He passed away a few months later in 2006 and my mother lived a couple more years after that. But, looking back now I realized God was using my mother to help my friend pass on to a better place very soon after that because of all the many angels in the room with my mother that time.

By God's Grace