Though I had also studied computer programming and operations starting when I was 18 and worked part time through my college from age 19 or so and then worked full time for a year or two as a computer operator programmer in North Hollywood at two different locations I eventually realized working midnight to noon 7 days a week was silly because I was 20 years old an single. Then I realized I could not do what I wanted to with computers because the computers of 1966 to 1970 were too tedious. I was actually 50 to 60 years technologically from what I actually wanted to do which is about now.
So, I then went in another direction which was to study to become a psychologist (which was an entirely new direction for me simply because through philosophy courses and psychology courses in college I began to learn how to save my own life. I realized I had to dump about 90% of what I had been conditioned to believe in order to survive past age 25 actually.
So, when I began to write in this "legendary style" I wasn't trying to make money or to write for other people ONLY to heal myself and any friends or relatives that might be interested in reading what I wrote. I still have never tried to make money from my writings even today and mostly publish them online for free.
However, I began to write in this style when I was 32 in 1980. I had just remarried in Mt. Shasta and about that time we also bought for cash land fairly remote on Mt. Shasta at 4000 feet without power or phones but with a septic tank where I built my family an A-Frame which also had a loft for sleeping. This changed our lives a lot and I had more time after doing this than before. It also saved us about 60,000 to 70,000 dollars in rent doing all this too because we paid cash for the land and sold one of our vehicles to help buy the building materials then because they weren't expensive at all compared to now. Then my father had retired and came up and helped me build this A-Frame. We had already built a retirement home for him in the Yucca VAlley area and my Mom came up to in their motor home to do all this which was helpful too, especially in cooking for all of us while we built this A-FRame. Friends came and helped too whenever they had the time.
So, this "legendary style" really wasn't invented to entertain others at that point.
However, then I was 50 years old and my son was by then at least 20 years old and my older daughter was about 10 years old then and then I had a new daughter who was around 2 1/2 years old and it appeared I was dying from a heart virus in 1998 and 1999. So, I refused to die (which if I wasn't married with children I would have just let go and died likely if I didn't have a family then because it was very hard to stay alive through all of that.
However, what I learned as I prepared to die was that I hadn't been writing "legendary science Fiction" designed to heal myself of things in this lifetime. I had actually been writing about past, present and future lifetimes I had already lived.
I wouldn't have believed all this was possible in 1980 because I was a sequential reincarnation Christian Mystic then. I had no idea in 1980 that our souls have nothing at all to do with time or space unless our souls are wearing a body like a human being does.
At this point all this made much more sense because I could see I wasn't just trying to heal this lifetime I was trying to heal all lifetimes in around a 7 million year range from millions of years into the past and millions of years into the future.
Once I realized this I knew that I needed to publish my works online. I wasn't interested in making money because we are okay that way already. So, because I could I wanted to share about what the future is bringing on a Galactic Level not just regarding Earth.
By God's Grace
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