Being in the hospital especially if you go in through the Emergency room is Traumatic

 However, I likely do better than most people because I have learned not to panic because fear and panic only usually kills people and nothing else. But, if you are not concerned going to the hospital through the emergency room you likely are having some psychological problems or are suicidal or something. However that is not me at this stage in life.

Mostly I live to be there for my wife and children and grandchildren and friends. Why?

Because I was really traumatized by my father's death at age 37 and I really didn't get over his dying likely until I was 50 and almost died myself.

In some ways almost dying was the best thing that could have happened to be to put everything into perspective and to stop trying to be young forever which only usually leads to a younger death than you need to die at.

Why?

Partly because if people are so busy pretending they are 25 years old still at 50 to 70 for example, they make serious mistakes that they might have survived when they were younger but not from 50 to 70 years old. Instead those mistakes often just take them out one day and then they are gone before 60 or 70.

I was amazed that my Cardiologist who put in my pacemaker died this year at age 60 even though he must have put in my pacemaker when he was 55 I guess. In 2020 in June I would have been  72 years old at that time.

I think the best part of going to the hospital for me is the lady Doctor who saved my life in the emergency room and the nurses who treated me in my hospital room and in the emergency room.

However, I was too out of it from Versed (a pain killer and amnesiac) in the emergency room to actually talk to anyone really but my emergency room lady doctor.

However, within about 8 hours they moved me from the emergency room to my private hospital room which was nice because there was a waterfall outside of my room that I could see through the window there. Then the nurses who treated me were friendly and helpful to me and to my wife which I am very grateful for. Because after coming from the emergency room you are sort of in shock and traumatized in some ways from what you have been through already that day. 

Anyway, trying to stay calm enough to survive and yet concerned enough to survive a trip to an emergency room is quite a feat for anyone to manage.

However, I succeeded at this (at least so far).

By God's Grace