Having been brave enough to actually face my suicidal feelings from 18 to 25 I find I'm much more emotionally stronger than most people are because of it. Why?

Because most people are not brave enough to face the harsh realities in their life.

Facing the harsh realities allowed me to face that my life wasn't working.

So, I went to college and found out how to recreate myself to reinvent myself so I would want to be alive.

The problem for me is I'm a very loyal person so I need to be very careful WHO I am loyal to.

I was very loyal to my parents and my religion and my loyalty to my parents remained but I had to give up loyalty to all the people (thousands of them) that I knew all around the world in my church in order to survive in my life.

This wasn't easy but necessary for me not to become a hypocrite like them. 

I personally needed real integrity and honesty with myself to continue to be alive.

People who have not faced the problems in their lives often die from alcohol or drugs.

That wasn't my path.

My path was to analyze my life to see what was wrong and to recreate myself to reinvent myself so I could be happy being alive here on earth.

This was no easy task to go from being a religious person to a "Spiritual but not Religious Person" in my 20s.

But by age 30 to 33 I had become happy in my life again.

So, often I will meet people lying to themselves and realize often these people will soon self destruct because they were not brave enough to do what I did to actually have a life I could want to be alive for.

By God's Grace