I look back now and see that Unrealistic expectations is what kills so many young people between 18 and 30 the most, where you think you just have to marry a certain person (doesn't happen about 90% of the time). Or you marry that person and find it is a complete disaster (about 50% of the time). So, most people are very miserable from about 18 to 30, especially people like me who had a pretty good childhood. However, people who had a miserable childhood often are happy between 18 and 30 because they are happy that crazy people aren't telling them what to do anymore.
But, for people like me who had wonderful parents, adulthood was the shits to try to find my way in a world full of completely insane people who often didn't care if I lived or died at all.
So, learning to create my own rules and my own life and to be captain of my own ship and the master of my own destiny was how I found a way forward in life. I saw immediately I wasn't going to fit in anybody else's world so I knew I would have to create my own world to live in with my intuition and intelligence and my boldness and daring. It was the only way I would have a future and stay alive past 30. So, I fought for a life I could actually stand to live and eventually I succeeded in this for myself and my children, one step at a time.
By God's Grace
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