No. You are not alone. I don't fully understand the need for imaginary numbers either:

What I do know is that in regard to quantum experiments, consciousness creates reality.

What do I mean by this?

I mean to say that the person conducting the experiment changes the experiment with whatever consciousness that person is in at the time.

In other words if you are in one state of consciousness doing a quantum experiment you might have one outcome but if you are in another state of consciousness something entirely different happens.

From a mystical point of view when I combine this true quantum mechanics effect ongoing I tend to believe that our minds somehow were created to create new realities all the time.

So, if you take a subjective attitude you become a slave to yourself or others.

But, if you take control of your reality (as much as you are capable of) you create your own reality.

From my point of view God designed us this way.

So, from my point of view we are all supposed to grow up into Sons and Daughters of God quite literally.

By God's Grace