Writing

 Writing doesn't have to be something you intend to publish ever.

For example, when I first wrote about Arcane in 1980 I was writing to heal myself of childhood and young adult traumas. My statement about being under 30 years old is basically:

"I really cannot believe that ANYONE survives to be 30 here on earth."

Why?

If you are between zero and 30 right now you might know exactly what I mean.

For example, finding my place on earth (long term) wasn't easy. Some people knew what they wanted to do at age 12 like my cousin. He wanted to be a lawyer and was practicing law until he was about 82 years old.

I only knew two things: I wanted to have children and I knew I wanted to own my own business. This is what I knew about myself for sure.

However, career wise this didn't help much.

So, I found (outside of getting married and having a son and eventually starting busineses) pretty crazy to say the least (even though I had many girlfriends along the way). I mostly stayed alive for whatever girlfriend I had at the time out of loyalty to her. I couldn't get to the point where I wanted to stay alive for myself. 

However, this is on top of the Narcissism of youth that I experienced until I was 25 and met my first wife.

So, yes. "I cannot believe anyone actually lives to be 30 in this world." But somehow many of us manage to do it anyway for our spouses and our children and our friends and our parents or grandparents like I did.

So, living for others was a necessity for me to make it to 30 but it was touch and go until I was 25 because I kept taking more and more serious physical risks in life sort of like tempting life to take me out.

But, somehow God and Angels kept me alive through it all.

So, often writing about all this might help others survive to 30 and beyond too.

By God's Grace