Understanding

Though my life is economically amazing in a variety of ways because God has put me in a position where I can help a whole lot of people including myself while "Giving me the leisure to practice". Little did I know that my almost dying for 7 months in 1998 and 1999 which ended suddenly when my heart specialist finally figured out what had been wrong with me. He said then in may 1999 (after my mother in law had died and my wife step mother had also died 3 months earlier) and the result of these two death and my own possible death had caused my wife's miscarriage. So, between my near death and the deaths of my wife's mother, stepmother and our misscarried son gave new meaning to the words "Blown Out" to the two of us. Luckily, we were both grown ups and survived this all somehow with our sanity and marriage intact.

So, as a result of all this my wife insisted that I retire at age 50. I saw how fragile she was from what had happened and looked at my then 3 year old daughter and realized I needed to retire both to take care of my wife and daughter and also of myself. This worked for everyone.

When the angels had come to me the previous Fall of 1998 when I thought I was dying, I couldn't feel my hands very much and was wobbling as I walked to the bathroom to look at myself in the mirror and to throw water on my face if I could to make my thoughts clearer I also noticed my lips looked sort of blue. I then called my son and said, "Please come take me to the hospital I'm having some sort of heart problem." So, I then walked into the living room and many white angels surrounded me. When I was little I saw their faces but now I only see angels as ovals of light with my inner sight manifest upon the world. They were very powerful so my thought was that they were here to take me to heaven. But, they began to speak loudly in unison. They said over and over to me, "You are not going to die! Your life will get better now!" They said this in unison in a circle around me over and over. I felt the waves of their power of their certainty of this being true over and over. It seeped deep into my cells and neurons and aura and permanently changed me.

When I look back upon this I realize that most people at this point would have died. However, God had trained me through Jesus and Saint Germain and all his angels all my life for moments like this. I had been trained to "NEVER PANIC". This was one of the primary demands that God had made of me to remain clearheaded at all times and to never panic. (Also, for anyone over 50 panic is one of the quickest ways to die) Because only if you are young and healthy can you survive panicking(and even then it can be fatal in some situations).

So, I had been a well trained adept by God and Jesus and Saint Germain for moments exactly like this. When my son arrived to take me to the hospital I was talking to a neighbor unless I fainted. If I fainted I told the neighbor to call an ambulance. I didn't want an ambulance unless I was unconscious because it might cause me to panic and I knew that would be fatal for me. The psychic disturbance caused by the sirens of an ambulance going through town kills many of panic or embarrassment picked up in the ambulances. Hopefully, in the future a better method to save lives will be invented.

But, for the moment I knew I was saving my own life because only God was in charge of my life and I was doing God's will by saving my own life. By saving my own life I was honoring God and his angels who had just told me that "You are not going to die! Your life will get better now!"

By the way the angels were right! It did. It has. And it will!