Philosophy 101

I had been sort of suicidal for a time and decided to go back to college instead of killing myself. This was a very good idea. IN philosophy class because I was now 22 years old and an adult instead of a teenage child pretending to be an adult I spoke up in Philosophy Class and was very honest about what I had to say unlike many other younger students who were not facing the potential end of their lives like I was. The teacher always gave me an A in that class because the questions I asked were always important to human beings emotional, mental, physical and spiritual survival. The professor had spent time in Japan at a Zen Monastery when he was younger and so invited me to a party with his wife and he. We spend many hours talking about deep philosophical questions and I felt very validated because of this. Later, my problems became worse and I decided to drop my full load of classes as a result. However, he called me up and begged me not to drop his class as he said I was his best student. So, I listened to him and kept his class because I felt it might help him and the other students and him in their lives and jobs. This was a very important decision for me because it led to me going back to school with a full load of classes the next semester for several years. During this time I became a new person through all my college and volunteer positions including "Suicide Counseling of others" as well as Operation Share where I tutored children after College so they could be better students in public school. This led to a better class of girlfriends and people having a lot of respect for me as a person because of my goal of becoming a psychologist as well as all the volunteer work I did to save people's lives, and to tutor children. This whole sequence of events completely changed my life and I stopped feeling sorry for myself and all my problems and moved forward in my life to helping others in any way that I could. This also led to my eventually getting married and having a son when I was 26 and then starting businesses along the way. Though I didn't ever become the psychologist I wanted to become, what I became instead is a complete person though a completely different person than I was at age 21 when I had to leave my childhood church for being to progressive and too 1960s for them at that time.

What happened to me many other people don't survive psychologically or physically. However, because I didn't give up when times were hard I eventually broke through to becoming someone completely different that was completely different than who I was before. And I have been able to help myself, my family and friends and acquaintances in an infinite amount of ways since then. The most important thing in life is to never give up on yourself. There is always hope for a good outcome no matter how hopeless things may look right now. The important thing is to never completely give up once and for all. If you give up then your life is over. If you get back up there is always hope for a good future for you.