One of my wife's best friends used to live in Half Moon Bay but after she broke up with her then husband we hadn't gone back there much. So, I told her I wanted to drive there because it is really beautiful there this time of year, especially because of the extremely warm weather there in the 70s Fahrentheit. So, we drove there together and on the way she walked on the beach (first time since her full knee replacement last June). I have tried not to rush her into things because I remember the PTSD I experienced myself from almost dying of a Heart virus and being forced to retire so I wouldn't just drop dead one day.
I got better in May 1999 but it left it's mark on me for a long time. The best thing was I didn't die. The second best thing was I outgrew middle aged crazy where you are upset that your youth is disappearing starting about 37 to 43 years of age which makes you a little manic in your life. But, when at age 49 and 50 I almost died for 8 months this worrying about dying completely went away. What I was left with was being happy for each moment I had left with my family and friends. It is with this attitude I started blogging first in 1999 in I believe June at Geocities while it was still existing until the mid 2000s (around 2005 I think or so).
Anyway, when my wife walked on a remote beach with me as we watched one of those silver sunsets which are really amazing looking where cirrus ice clouds are thick enough to make the sun silver but under that the sunset is pink and gold. So, we watched the sun set on a really remote Hiway one beach near to Half Moon Bay and then when it got dark stayed in a Bed and Breakfast right next to the ocean with the ocean crashing all night long with a veranda overlooking the ocean.
I noticed the bed and breakfast had been built on cement piling stilts for when the water rises and washes into the parking lot as the ocean rises during storms and storm surges. So, the Bed and breakfast wouldn't be washed away during storms for the next 10 or 20 years at least being built this way.
So, we dog our corgi dog with us so she was really happy and it sort of reminded me of traveling with my youngest daughter by having my daughter's corgi with us while my two daughters are far away in college right now.
So, just getting my wife to travel like this likely made me happier than anything else in the past year. Because it was a real breakthrough for her realizing she could walk on beaches again without falling down. Her physical therapy had paid off and she needed to realize just how far she had come.
However, whether it was my heart virus or whether it is a knee replacement or any other type of trauma you endure, it isn't easy to come out the other side of all that either physically or psychologically. It's a long hard climb even if you have enough money to see you through something like this until you come out the other side.
So, I was very grateful to feel I'm now beginning to get my wife back from before her pain became so great about a year ago now that I was talking in my sleep and complaining in my sleep to her that I couldn't go on with what all the ongoing pain had done to her. She's back! And I'm very grateful and so is she! By God's Grace!
I'm probably not a good enough photographer to get a silver sunset to really come alive with a camera so here are some examples of one here:
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