When I look back on my life from my present 71 I didn't really plan my life a lot. I suppose this was because I had almost already died from whooping cough at age 2 and from blunt trauma childhood epilepsy from ages 10 to 15 from a blow to the head at age 9 falling and hitting my head on a rock in Chilao in Angeles National forest in the mountains above Los Angeles (6000 feet to 7000 feet there).
So, permanency enough to think I was going to live and have a normal life didn't make any sense to me really after all that that I had been through between ages 2 and 15. So, on one level I sort of expected to die by 25 years of age and so in some ways I lived my life to the fullest because I thought my life likely would be short (even though God had been invoked into my life at 15) because I didn't want to die of Blunt Trauma childhood epilepsy.
So, there was a lot of desperation in my life in the way I viewed things. Most people I saw as kind of silly and often I had to watch silly people die along the way which only made me want to throw up from that.
I was never a silly person in that I had suffered a lot from whooping cough and Blunt trauma childhood epilepsy. So, what all that did to me is it made me a very kind and thoughtful person because I didn't want others to suffer like I had. So, ending other people's suffering and of course my own were the most important things to me as a child and young adult and full fledged adult.
So, I was always much more mature than people around me at every age. For example, because I was very kind and tall and handsome I started dating at age 15. By age 16 I was dating a girl from church who was 21 years of age which changed me a lot. Then high school seemed ridiculous to me and I wanted to drop out of school in my senior year because of this and work. Then my parents got me to go to a private church school in Santa Fe, new Mexico where I was the biggest tallest strongest person there in school. So, this was nice because I didn't have to fight anyone there because people could get killed in the public high school I had attended for my sophomore and Junior years in Glendale, California.
So, my parents sending me (without my car) to Santa Fe, New Mexico was one of the best things they ever did for me to understand myself and the world around me better. When I came back after a school year away I really appreciated my parents and was much closer to them after that. I was less interested in moving out on my own after that experience and saw my parents as much more useful to me than before going to the private school and graduating High school there.
But, the one thing I learned fairly early in life is to live one day one moment at a time and that plans don't usually work (at least for me). So, I learned to live by God's Grace in my life which likely is why I have been so successful in so many different ways.
Because life always changes in ways you are not prepared for, so if you are more spontaneous like I prefer to be often you wind up on top being spontaneous and adaptable like I have been. I can look back and see the 100 or more different lives I have lived in this one lifetime and be amazed!
But, mostly I have always lived ONLY by the Grace of God!
God has been very good to me always. Even when I believed I was going to die soon, God has resurrected me from the Dead over and over and over Again. As long as I listen to God's angels it might always be this way!
By God's Grace
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