I developed this style of writing starting with the death of my Cousin when I was 8 years old. I realized I could self comfort when I was afraid and felt vulnerable because I was an only child and in the 1950s people didn't talk about death much to children especially when someone close in the family died. Then people would talk to you more about death after you were 12 or so but less was known generally about children in general on all levels in the 1950s than now. There has been an explosion of knowledge regarding the consequences of various different psychological and physical things now compared to then.
So, being basically alone facing the death of my oldest cousin at age 16 it was necessary that I find some way to cope with this event. I likely had already been given a .22 rifle and bullets which I kept in my bedroom and I needed some way not to follow my cousin to my young death as well.
So, writing I found helpful in finding a way forward at that time. And as I grew older I found ways to keep myself alive too.
One of the ways I found helpful in staying alive was when I started having piano lessons. Though I didn't practice forever, what I did do was to play through all my pieces of music my piano teacher gave me when I returned from school each day. I found it calmed me down from school because I didn't like school even though I liked learning because I was very interested in science and history always because I found both fascinating as a child and young adult and for that matter throughout my life. But, playing music after school calmed me down so if people had upset me during the day because quite frankly in the 1950s there were a lot of basically insane children at that time. So, dealing with these basically insane children was difficult even though I was big for my age. So, I didn't have to fight a lot because I could hit much harder than others and I wasn't a person to start fights. So, I was good at quickly ending fights when people attacked me so they would stop immediately because of my size and strength. But, this didn't stop toxic mouths from speaking or yelling at me or others. Like I said insane children were much more normal then than now because there were no abortions allowed back then in the U.S. so many many children were tortured towards insanity by their mothers and sometimes by their fathers as well.
So, writing was a way along with doodling in a spiral notebook which eventually led to writing lyrics for songs. I was always a good sight reader which means by age 12 I could sit down with almost any piano sheet music and be able to play whatever it was within about 10 to 15 minutes time just reading it by sight.
In my teens I began taking the song "Heart and Soul" which is in the key of C and easy to play and I started making variations of this and writing songs from these variations. Then later I took up the guitar and sang with a guitar too and later I taught myself flute too. So, I started writing a whole lot of songs as I started playing chords on a guitar too and then I could also convert these songs back to piano from the chords.
I found I liked to write songs in Triads which to me means writing a song in 3 chords. So, my favorite chord patterns would be: C, F and G as one pattern then D C and G for another pattern and then D, A and G for another pattern of chords I liked. I found it much easier not only to write songs this way but also to Trance much like you do with East Indian Bhajans.
I found I liked to trance into a God state and could do this very easily by playing guitar or piano and to spontaneously play in chord patterns while singing new words and lyric to songs I created in the moment.
This can take a person to a very wonderful and magical place if you feel safe while you are doing this.
By God's Grace
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