I thought of this while watching "The Ten Commandments"(1956) with Charlton Heston tonight on TV the day before Easter and I was thinking about this.
OF just how improbable things that people have always believed in.
However, without believing what they believed most would have died very young.
I have myself believed many different things in my lifetime and some of them kept me alive here all the way to 77 almost 78 now.
When I grew up unless you were very Christian and very white often you were going to have a very hard time here in the U.S. unless you were lily white.
So, I believed what was useful to me at every moment growing up. When I was given a pamphlet by my father when I was about 9 or 10 years old about all Black people having to move back to Liberia I knew this was wrong but I didn't talk to my father about it because I was 9 years old. What was I going to do about it at that age?
I didn't really believe in my parents religion at age 10 because too many people were dying from not going to the doctors. I believed in science then and now and I'm a very logical pragmatic person and yet I was always a very kind person, especially after I had whooping cough at age 2. I never wanted anyone good or bad to have to suffer like I did. Then my concussion around age 9 resulted in seizures only at night from ages 10 to 15 which terrified me because each seizure was exactly like being murdered each time.
Eventually at age 14 my father when I had a bad seizure and had broken my nose trying to get to them before I died (the easiest way to die in a seizure is not to have someone hold your head and you smash your head against an object and die or you can choke on your tongue. So, not getting someone to hold your head during a seizure is often fatal.
So, as I was shaking and recovering from this seizure after waking up in a pool of my own blood around my head from my broken nose while my father tried to put a butter knife in between my teeth so I didn't choke on my tongue he said to me: "If you don't get some religion under your belt, son you are going to die!"
And I took this seriously even though I was up until then more of a kindly scientific person in school. I knew at that time all the names and models of all cars made in the U.S. because I really wanted to be able to drive to go anywhere I wanted to. Also, I bought my first car at age 16 the month after I passed my driving test on my 16th birthday, a 1956 Ford Stationwagon.
So, at this point I was 14 years old and I started going to my parents church 4 days a week trying to stay alive. But, my parents didn't even take me to a doctor until I was 12 even though I started having seizures after a Sunday Newspaper route delivery on my bicycle when I was 10. When I had my first seizure my mother only told me I had had a bad dream. She thought I must be a great man because of having the "King's Disease" but she didn't tell me this at the time.
Dr. Dody in out in the Valley (san Fernando Valley I believe) gave me a b-12 shot because he thought I had anemia or something from growing up a vegetarian like my father had raised me. Then he wanted me to take Phenobarbitol and my father refused this. So, basically this is how my life started out regarding God.
(even though the Archangels had saved my life at age 2 already). So, the last seizure that I almost had I had been praying a lot so I wouldn't die and this worked this time about 1 year after the broken nose seizure with blood around my head.
This time I was in a vision of armies in preparation for a death seizure attacking me to kill me and I invoked God into my body with me and these armies all became mine and I felt the power of God rush through me and take charge of everything in and around me. And God has been living inside of me ever since.
By God's Grace
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