Saturday, May 2, 2015

Let Go and Let God!

My mother and grandmother were very evolved in spiritual and religious thinking as mystical Christians. Even when I was 2 years old dying of whooping cough they would say to me, "Let Go and Let God" which basically meant, "Absolutely  anything is possible if you let God do it!" They were right too. This sort of became my byword at 2 when my Grandmother sang "Hark the Herald Angels Sing" which invoked the real Archangel Michael there along with his whole band of Archangels to heal me from Whooping cough which I was then dying from.

Anything is possible if you let God do it!

So, this always was what I was taught. Basically, it is "Get out of the way of God changing literally everything in your life".

Though I must admit that since March 27th when I first went to the hospital from throwing up about 12 times and getting so dehydrated after my Appendix burst has been the most extreme stance of all this I have ever had to take.

For example, If I had had to work at a job during this time I would now only be dead. If I didn't have funding to go through all this I would be dead. If I didn't have medicare (because I'm now 67) I also might be dead and owing 50,000 to 100,000 dollars in hospital fees. Whereas everything medically that happened to me so far was free because of my medicare and supplemental coverage.

So, God has engineered a "Perfect Storm" in my life that he wanted me to survive I guess.

So, my experience of all this would be if you or I went camping at high altitude along the John Muir Trail in the High Sierras where it is very beautiful. At night, the stars are so bright while it's cold and crisp that you feel you could reach out and touch them as they move into your body with you in the spiritual nature of the high mountain fastness. Then there is the sunrise which blinds your soul from the beauty of snow capped peaks with snow fed lakes and rivers as you watch Deer, and Elk and Mountain lions and bears come down to drink there in the wild wilderness fastness of the remote Sierras. (This could be any really beautiful wilderness area in the U.S. or world).

As you watch the sun and the beautiful clouds travel across the sky you give thanks to God for bringing you to such a wonderful place. Then that night it gets so cold you think you might freeze to death so you put on extra clothes and gather more firewood to try to survive the night. Then during the night it begins to snow and you wonder if you have enough gear to survive all this. So, you begin to write wondering if you will survive the night here in the wilderness alone with God. Just in case you freeze to death and someone later finds your body there. But, somehow you don't freeze to death and then the wind and sun come out and the snow melts and everything is beautiful and okay once again.

This is a lot how this last month has been for me. I am alone in the wilderness with God a lot like Jesus and Buddha faced their demons and angels too. And in some ways the result is the same. I am no longer who I was a month ago. I still have the same memories but how I think and feel about everything has completely changed how I perceive everything in my life.

God has taken me and made of me what he has wished at every stage. And I'm no longer the Fred I once was or the Fred I would have recognized 1 month or 6 months ago. I am now and still becoming God's ever evolving Fred capable of Letting Go and Letting God according to his infinite ever evolving will!

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