People are dying over this election

Gwen Ifill, Leon Russell, Leonard Cohen etc. etc. etc.

Many have died likely partly because of this election. It is also likely many more will die because of this election.

But, here is my thought: "I already had to give up my anger once to not die". At the time I was 50 years old in 1998 and very upset I couldn't get full custody of my then 9 or 10 year old daughter. I finally had received Joint Legal Custody after years in court. But, at least I could spend 9 weeks (Plus any weekends I could get away) with my daughter after spending this much to make this happen).

But, I was still very very angry because I didn't feel she was safe with her mother.

So, when I got a heart virus (which I believe I got from being so angry) I had to stand before God and say to myself, "I just have to let all this anger go. It's just killing me. I have to stay alive for my 2 1/2 year old daughter, my 9 year old daughter, my new wife of a few years, and my older son who was then about 22 or so. I have to let go of this anger or else I will die. So, for about 8 months I did almost die. But, letting my anger go in the beginning of all this also likely saved my life.

So, when I woke up that fateful morning in september 1998 and couldn't feel my arms and hands right and looked into the bathroom mirror and saw my lips looked blue I thought I was dying and started to prepare to die.

I called my son to come get me instead of calling for an ambulance because I knew I would die if I called an ambulance because my father died in an ambulance on the way to a hospital in 1985.

While I was waiting for my son to pick me up about 9 angels surrounded me in an oval and were all bright white angels. They said to me in unison: "You aren't going to die, your life will get better now!"

They said this over and over again to me. I could feel all the cells of my body listening to these angels even though my mind was at least partly convinced I was dying then.

But, the angels were right. After almost dying for 8 months until May 1999 I did get better and my life somewhat returned to normal except I had to stay retired. God had given me "Leisure to Practice" which is what I had prayed for since 1980. But, I would not have believed the way it came to me.

Now I could pray unceasing because I had all the time in the world to pray for everyone on earth including myself.

This is part of what this blog is about. However, I realized tonight this election is starting to make me sick because only young people can survive this much anger without having a heart attack or a stroke at my age.

Somehow, I have got to let the anger go and let go of this election or else it is going to kill me just like my heart virus caused by my anger and not getting full custody of my daughter did way back when from 1994 until 1998 and 1999.

So, once again I am choosing to let go my anger rather than to die like all the people who have died and will die from this insane election that likely might or will destroy our democracy.

We are in for it. And as far as I can see Trump doesn't have a clue as to how to bring us together or to save us.

He knows how to tear us apart and insult us. But, he won't be able to heal the damage he has already done to this country.

So, God Help us!

I give up God. It's up to you now. I'm no good to you dead.

By God's Grace