As we learned from Meghan Markles interview with Oprah: "There are many reasons for contemplating suicide"

When I was young if you were a closet Gay man for example, suicide was always an option. I personally knew someone who was likely gay in the closet for a long time and married twice to two different women and finally came out in his 50s. However, I don't know how useful coming out that late was to him really because he had passed on by his early 60s.

I contemplated suicide for an entirely different reason as a young man which had to do with hypocrisy which is self evident in all religions on earth in churches and ministers. Looking back now it makes more sense to me now than in my late teens and early 20s when it was very confusing to me to try to stay alive while leaving my childhood church because of obvious hypocrisy all around me. At that time I don't think i realized yet that all Churches worldwide are just full of hypocrisy. Then I was idealistic and thought that if you didn't really believe what churches said and did that you should leave like I did. However, looking back now most people sort of use churches as ways to make business customers and for social connections and business connections whether they believe ANYTHING those churches say or not.

But then, as a young idealist I couldn't believe that people could be that shallow but as a mature adult I realized mostly they are that shallow worldwide.

I found out that I am the exception because I actually have experiences direct with God and Angels and always have. But, from my point of view God and angels have absolutely nothing to do with any religion directly but only very indirectly at best. Because God Help you if you let ministers or religious people come between you and God. If you do you are toast (or might be toast very young).

But, having experiences with God and Angels has less than nothing to do with any church or religion on earth also.

Luckily, I got married and had a son and at this point at age 26 so I couldn't take my own life because of the confusion of being in my early 20s and not understanding just how hypocritical most people could actually be.

There was something I held onto until I was 29 though which was: "Don't trust anyone over 30".

However, as I got closer to age 30 I realized that this was ridiculous because was I not supposed to be able to trust myself when I turned 30?

So, kindness combined with pragmatism instead of idealism is how I survived my life quite well as I watched friends and relatives die all around me from the 1950s to the present.

By God's Grace