If you hate yourself you might wind up killing others (or yourself) or both

I'm not writing this to scare you but to warn you all of this problem. I didn't always like myself either folks.

Here's a truism that I have believed since the 1950s that made me not like myself originally.

"All Men are assholes and God Help me I am one of them!"

This idea didn't help me in my life but it does describe how I felt a lot of the time in the 1950s, 1960s and into the 1970s.

It sort of drove me to suicide until I discovered psychological therapy.

Through reading and studying psychology I was able to heal this aspect of myself and men in general in my own mind and life.

How did I accomplish this?

First I tended to see myself as Steppenwolf (read the book) by Herman Hesse. This book disturbed me greatly.

However, it became a metaphor for me to go from.

First, I had to admit that human beings are animals. It's true we are domesticated animals who have created mores and religions to help guide us. But still, men and women are domesticated animals.

And women who have been physically victimized more regularly than men down through the centuries have figured out ways not to be victimized as much over time (at least in this country). However, likely in places where 60% of the people aren't educated (like India was in 1985 and 1986) when I was there women were still moving only in groups of 5 to 12 women to avoid being raped (especially in small towns out in the country).

So, after I was able to see all human beings as domesticated animals I was able to reconcile many of the problems that humans have including my own. Religion wasn't too helpful to me regarding many of these issues because religions tend to be ONLY repressive of people's natural feelings and instincts which only causes a type of insanity in people generally speaking.

In other words when you repress your natural feelings and urges you are only going to eventually kill yourself or others (one of the two or both).

So, only through redirection of your energies do you create a non-violent outcome.

Since Religions generally use repression of instincts and emotions they are counter productive to a sane outcome usually which often results in suicide or murder when the repressions become too extreme.

So, for groups of people religions subdue impulses a lot but for individuals often it just drives people insane and towards suicide.

So, finding ways not to hate yourself is one way to avoid murder and suicide.

If you can accept yourself fully with all your instincts and needs then you can begin to be a real human being that is useful to yourself and all other beings as an adult elder.

Only through self acceptance of all your qualities can you emerge as a full human being.

So, redirection of whatever your impulses and instincts are is the best solution into ways that are good not only for yourself but for mankind as well.

So, engineer yourself and your life for longevity and balance.

Otherwise, you won't be alive or sane very long.

By God's Grace