Why religions have sort of frightened me since I was 21

By the time I was about 30 I realized that religions and I didn't get along very well. Or more specifically if I join a church I get too involved in the heart center of that church and I'm too open minded and ecumenical for that to work out well. I ask too many questions that no one wants to answer ever.

Church is a game people play because there are always questions you are never allowed to ask and stay a member of that church. For me, asking those questions makes my life meaningful.

However, if you ask those questions in any church likely they will eventually ask you to leave.

I was born into a church that my parents believed in which was a mystical Christian church similar to Christian Science in many ways.

But, by age 21 I asked questions that upset a lot of people and they asked me to leave the church. I didn't need to leave the church and all my friends I just needed to know the answers to my questions.

But, that is part of the church game. You cannot ask certain questions or they don't want you around. Otherwise, it makes them look bad if they cannot answer those questions.

And if you ask those questions in public it is even worse. So, since I sang in the choir and was a youth group leader at the time, they asked me to leave the church and my friends.

Religions don't have all the answers. None of them do. So, in this sense all churches are sort of fake.

So, if you are an intelligent critical thinker and not just someone hooked on the drug of your church and religion, as in "religion is the opiate of the people", then likely they are going to ask you to either leave or stop asking useful questions.

So, the main reason all churches have sort of frightened me is that at core they are a drug and not a real answer for intelligent people who can think critically and are not complete fools.

It doesn't mean that God is real or even that God isn't real. It just means churches and ministers don't really have the complete answers either in any religion or church anywhere.

So, unless you seek the truth for yourself you likely aren't going to find it whatever it is.


I still believe in God even now because I find it useful. Too many people decide to be atheists or agnostics only to kill themselves before 25 or 30.

In the end you have to believe in something or you are just going to kill yourself.

This is just a part of what it is to be human.


I wonder how many Islamic Terrorists don't actually believe in God and just want to commit suicide to make their families proud.

I think a lot.