Growing up
Difficult but sometimes possible
I remember so many people that I thought were stronger than me and even better than me and watching them die slowly or quickly and being horrified and surprised always at the terrible loss of friends my age dying.
They died in Viet Nam during the war
They died racing cars
They died rock climbing
They died committing suicide over a girl or a guy they were in love with
They "Accidentally" died doing almost anything
They Over dosed on drugs
They died however they died often from a broken heart or from disappointment or whatever.
I realize now how lucky I was to have 2 parents and grandparents who loved me and stayed with me until they died always. And I now realize (at least in California) how rare this actually is here.
20 to 30
Difficult but sometimes impossible
This is the decade that killed most of my friends.
20 to 30
I myself barely just barely made it from 18 to 25 to when my live in girlfriend got pregnant and we married before my son was born. Being a Father caused me to grow up and stop being selfish (sort of).
However, I still remember being about 27 or 28 and trying to cross country ski on Mt. Shasta with my son at about 2 1/2 in a Gerry Carrier and falling down and him flying through the air and landing in the snow when I fell. And I remember thinking I had to grow up and not do this anymore because I'm a father now! And I did grow up and stayed alive to raise my son and kept him alive somehow too until he got his bachelors of Science Degree when he started taking care of himself more and getting married and stuff like that. And now his son is almost 6 years old at this point too.
But, being a father was a life saving event for me in that I was forced to grow up starting at 26 and taking responsibility and luckily I had enough experience in life by then to do that well to start businesses and support my children until they could grow up and go to college too.
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