Felt or Thought?

I was realizing that often I will say "Felt" instead of "thought"  and I realized this is because I'm an intuitive person. So, thinking often seems to me devoid of feeling. And the lack of being in touch with one's feelings I directly associate with World War I, World War II, The Cold WAR, the Korean War and especially the Viet Nam war.

So, I tend to use the word "Felt" over "Thought" because thought without any feelings to me is death.

However, there are times when one must submerge their feelings to survive many situations that come up in life. 

For example, I wanted to die a lot between ages 21 and 25 when I got married and had a son. So, it's true I had to bite my lip until it bled (quite literally) and be very willful to survive these times. Because if I did what I felt I would have killed myself.

However, I couldn't do this to my parents who had been very good parents to the best of their ability. So, to honor them I stayed alive until I got married and had my son. Then it didn't really matter what I felt because I had to stay alive to raise my son right. 

By age  32 I was happy in my life raising my son and married a second time. So, between age 32 and 37 I was very happy until my father died when I was 37.

Then it was difficult until I was 50 when I almost died. Since then, I have been grateful to God for every moment I have left alive.

So, is it "felt" or "thought"?

I still feel that "Thought" devoid of feelings is only death for humanity.

Which is why I write as intuitivefred888 to show a way forward where thoughts and feelings are combined for human survival.

Human instincts refined are intuition. Without intuition we are all dead things and that's all.