The Incarnation

There are thousands to millions of them incarnated and incarnating all over earth all the time. This is written to be sort of timeless. This is the experience of one of them.

He was 12 years old and he had childhood epilepsy. He wondered why God was choosing to kill him in this way. He went to a church camp of a church his parents belonged to. He met a friend there from Sunday School growing up in L.A.(Los Angeles). His friend to taught him to solo sexually relieve himself. The incarnation realized this made him less angry and less likely to hurt anyone. Since the incarnation wanted to grow up and become an educated gentleman and not just another asshole, he cultivated this new experience in order to prevent his harming others. He also found that his piano lessons were paying off. Even if he really wanted to harm someone who was being bad to everyone at school he found he could play piano and sing and at night sexually relieve himself thinking of the most beautiful girls at school and he would no longer be frustrated and want to kill people who were bad.

His friend from Church was 3 years older and came from a much wealthier and well established family than his. In fact they had bought the multi thousand acre retreat site for the church in the beautiful mountains of northern California.

His friend liked to joke after youth group on Friday nights at church. He got the incarnation interested in Philosophy and the nature of all things. The incarnation was already interested in science as his father was an Electrical Contractor and thought a lot of Nicola Tesla. So, the incarnation's mother had already read to him "Nicola Tesla: The Prodigal Genius" by the time he was 8 or 9 years old. They had read him "Unveiled Mysteries", "The Magic Presence" and the "'I AM' Discourses" by the time he had been 5 years old. So the world he now lived in was pretty much not like his peers in public school.

Up until he was 12 he had to go to church 2 to 3 times or more a week. Though he wasn't happy about this he made do, after all he was just a kid. What did he know yet?

But from about age 12 everything started to change in extreme ways:hormones, teen craziness, kids beating each other up, kids at school in sexual liasons, etc. Though the incarnation never dated until he was 15 he felt confused by all the things going on around him. In junior High School(Middle School)his parents had moved to a better part of town so he wouldn't have to deal with gangs in junior High(ages 12 to 15).

So he now had to deal with really rich kids and some middle class but no poor kids really at all. This created many problems for the incarnation as rich kids only functioned in well ordered cliques that didn't allow outsiders in.

So the incarnation felt very confused by this sort of behavior. IN the poorer grade school that was still a good school scholastically, one could fight to join a group an then be accepted. However, with the rich cliques there was simply No way in. Only the rich were accepted. Since the incarnation was only middle class he was not accepted into these cliques except by the nerds(A students) and the car clubbers(poor boys who raced cars and created non-violent racing gangs). So, the incarnation hung out with both these groups since he was too wild just to hang out with the science nerds all the time.

Over time he became a surfer and bought a surf wagon in high school(a station wagon to haul longboards, a style of surfboards at that time).

Finally, God didn't kill him with childhood epilepsy and the night time seizures stopped suddenly at age 15. Instead he found that suddenly instead of dying God had increased his supernatural gifts 10 fold and all of a sudden his appearance changed and he was suddenly desireable to women young and old.

Now you might think this was a good thing? Right? But like all things it is a two edged sword. In middle aged women there was jealousy because they were really too old for him. In younger women 20 to 30 they were manipulative and scary. He found he felt way out of his league unless the person was his own age. He finally settled on dating a beautiful blue eyed blonde from Alaska. He was inspired by President Kennedy's death.

He thought to himself, "If President Kennedy can be assassinated then so could I. If I don't want to die a virgin I better start dating." Though this seems funny now. Then it was deadly serious. And funnier still because the incarnation was a gentlemen around women in all ways he remained basically a virgin until he was 21, even though he had spent the night with a girlfriend by age 16.

However, he was always afraid of the supernatural gifts that seemed to always surround all his thoughts and actions. He hadn't yet tuned into the fullness of who and what he was. He knew he was special but he didn't fully understand it yet. He was just too young and inexperienced. After all, he was only 15.

His discovery of how much girls his age liked him happened at church camp when he was 15. Two girls, one from Florida and one from Canada at the church camp were very interested in him. He was basically shy and didn't know what to make of all this attention at first. These two girls were his age and very serious about the whole thing but he just wasn't really there yet. So one by one these girls enjoyed talking him away from the nightly campfires and into the woods to talk. Though he felt complimented this was just so new to him he didn't really know what to do but to be polite. Whereas many church girls are anxious to find a man to marry in their church even at 15. Whereas the incarnation was just a 15 year old boy, clueless still.

However, the incarnation had learned that girls liked him with his caps on his front teeth(his teeth had been broken off when he ran into a car on a bicycle at age 9 and were recently capped with adult caps at 15) and they liked him because he was tall (over 6 foot 1 even at 15) and strong, muscular and slim and kind to all beings(his basic nature). So even though he was tall they were not afraid of him but instead tended to confide in him like he was a big brother, because he did not judge them no matter what they told him. He was like a young priest or minister counselor and seemed to understand them better than most other boys. Also, he loved nature and so seemed mysterious to them because of this and this just interested them more.

Since the incarnation wasn't stupid he took all this in and wondered what to do with all this new information. He found himself attracted to not only girls his own age but women of all ages. However, it was only practical to date girls around his own age, which he began about 5 months after church summer camp in the fall in public school.

However, all this isn't just about a boy coming of age it is about an incarnation coming of age which is different in a variety of ways.

The incarnation started to have really interesting dreams of flying and having wings on his back in dreams. People told him this was a sign that he was supernaturally gifted. However, he could have told them that. He didn't need anyone to tell him how supernaturally gifted he was. These gifts already scared him within an inch of his life almost every day. In fact, his biggest motivation was to protect other people from his gifts because he couldn't control them that well yet.

It would be 15 years later that Lamas would tell him of tutelary dieties and protectors who protect incarnations from all comers good and bad. However, that was 15 years away or more and the incarnation had to live with all the things happening right now. It also scared him when he would walk by someone and know that they might die next week. He really didn't want to know that. Sometimes when they actually died the incarnation would cry or throw up from knowing this ahead of time. However, other times he would know that some people were very bad or just insanely crazy intuitively and know to stay away from those people and to never associate with them. Often later he would hear about them spending time in jail or their untimely deaths as youths.

One day he had a dream about being in a ancient Greecian gown and flying through the air like superman. As he flew he knew something was wrong on the ground so he sent lightning bolts to destroy the problem on the ground. This was a very pivotal dream in his life and eventually led to him learning to consciously soul travel all over earth and our galaxy and beyond.

There was another dream which was of himself driving a chariot across the sky. The chariot was white with gold embossing and the horses were all white and very wild and they flew across the sky taking he and the chariot across the sun. Somehow this was very powerful and related to travel in cars, planes, motorcycles and soul travel all over the universe. As a young man he used to drive his brand new 1968 Camaro 400 miles on an average weekend especially because gas was only 17 cents a gallon and minimum wage was over a $1.

The incarnation had many girlfriends from age 15 to age 25 when he met his first wife. He didn't know he was an incarnation yet as many do not know until they are about 40. However, they still are protected by their tutelary dieties like princes and princesses protected by their supernatural bodyguards and tutors.

So in this way the ones who are incarnations are protected lifetime after lifetime after first becoming saints. For you see it is not really what they do so much as their presence on earth that makes the difference. Just being within a few miles of them is healing to many beings human and otherwise. Their presence as reincarnated saints lifts the consciousness of everyone around them for miles and miles. And as they rediscover themselves they are able at times to affect time and space and weather around the world for the betterment of all beings. The incarnations are are here and incarnating all around the world now and on into the distant future. It is just what incarnations do.