At 40 this was not me by the way. However, by age 50 I got my ducks in a row. So, I was able to have "My Life begin at 50" even though my 40s were pretty rough and then I almost died by 50.
I think I would have to say all this began when I was 37 and my father passed away. It wasn't that his passing was unexpected, it was that he didn't have to die if he had just had his prostate removed. However, I couldn't convince him to do that. So, like his father before him he didn't believe in doctors except really for stitches and broken arms and that's about it.
I even myself almost died from whooping cough as well as my son because my father and mother were anti-vaxers in the 1950s and 1960s especially.
So, how did I go from not having my ducks in a row at 40 to being okay by age 50?
A friend at that time who had a master's degree in psychology and taught in a Los Angeles High School told me that I needed to take on this statement "There Are NO problems Only Opportunities".
IF you take this to heart it can and will completely change your life.
I had always had sort of an entrepreneurial way of looking at things anyway. But if you live by this statement you tend to become Ultimately entrepreneurial regarding ALL aspects of your life. So, when my father passed on I felt completely lost and realized how much mentally and emotionally I had depended upon his wisdom because he was a very steady man and valedictorian of his High School Class as well. So, he was very wise and I was sorry he couldn't take care of his own health through doctors which cost him his life at only age 69 when I was 37. I was devastated both by his death which also brought on Middle aged Crazy as well in me.
My Oldest biological son has an interesting way of looking at this. He says: "When you are born it's like you are falling out of a plane at 20,000 feet with no parachute on. At first everything is all cozy and people are taking care of you and you think you are going to live forever. But, along about 25 or 30 or more years old you start to notice that the ground is coming up pretty fast and you likely are going to die some day at some point.
Dealing with the ground coming up where you are going to go splat is hard. So, when my Dad died I REALLY realized my whole life wasn't really working for me at that point at age 37 and so even though I was married and raising 3 kids then and eventually had a 4th and 5 th (two step kids and 3 biologically of my own) I realized that death was inevitable when my father passed away.
From about ages 37 to 50 I was trying to reconcile all this and then I almost died for about 8 or 9 months and was forced to retire and by some miracle I was able to actually do this. At this point everything in my life became Grace.
I stopped worrying about dying completely and instead took a completely new attitude which was and Is" Being grateful for each moment that God has given me here in my life". IN this way I had already accepted my death like I had already died and was an angel living here on earth. So, my life was no longer about fighting to stay alive but rather to see how much blessings I could pray and bring into my own life and other's lives direct from God and his angels.
So, the point here is: "Yes. Life can begin at 40 but mine began at 50 instead".
By the Grace of God
This was 23 years ago where my life started to be about living By the Grace of God full time. It's a very blessed way to live your life where you are just grateful for every moment you have left by the way.
By God's Grace
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