Though it kept me alive this is partly because kids weren't as expensive to raise in the 1970s and 1980s as they are now.
When I was in my early 20s I didn't really see how I could stay alive past 25. However, that was me then and this is me now.
When did this change?
I remember being 24 or almost 25 and saying to my male friends: "Maybe I will just have a long series of girlfriends like I have since I was 15?"
However, one year later I was married with a child by the end of Springtime of 1974 when I turned 26.
The transition was not an easy one. However, I realized that I was suited to be a father. I didn't much like the idea of being a husband but we lived together for over a year before we married one month before my son was born in 1974.
The first thing I gave up besides other girlfriends was rock climbing. I sensed I could die doing this and I wanted to be alive to raise my son right. So, I just gave up rock climbing with ropes and pitons. Then within a year or two a friend of mine died at Castle Crags near Dunsmuir and Mt. Shasta free climbing. I realized I had made the right decision. I also was very careful with motorcycles and seldom rode them on busy highways or freeways. IN 1974 I bought a Honda 250 XL dualsport (though I don't think they were called dualsports yet.
But, I still took risks on a motorcycle off road like jumping my motorcycle with the rear wheel 8 feet off the ground. A friend of mine who was a psychologist, a psychic and who used to come into my mind while I was riding and jumping my motorcycle in the dirt used to come into my mind and say: "This is dangerous! You need to stay alive to raise your son!" I was a single father then and my son was 4 years old. Looking back she was right but at the time I was upset my first marriage had failed and I likely needed counseling but didn't get it because I wasn't the right generation yet for that like now. This was 1978 by the way at this point.
Being a father was what kept me alive through my 20s the most and being a precognitive Intuitive where I always knew just how far I could take things without dying.
Almost dying, (since whooping cough and a concussion rock climbing with my father and seizures at night sometimes from 10 to 15 years old always made me take risks to prove to myself that I was still alive. When I was near death I always felt the most alive. And often I couldn't believe I was still alive after whooping cough and a concussion and seizures at night until age 15.
After all the seizures ended at age 15 girls didn't scare me compared to almost dying every time I had a seizure where I would be knocked out and unconscious for an hour or two and felt like I had died each time or been murdered. Girls compared to almost dying so many times were wonderful and if I died from love, Why Not? It was better than dying from a seizure. This was my thought from 15 on.
Being a father from age 26 is what saved my life and kept saving my life as more children were born later on, one when I was about 40 and another when I was around 47 years of age.
By then I also had learned that the older you have your children the older you tend to live also. I can see now why this is true. It's because you stay more present, because you have to to help your kids into the present that they have to face. And then you never stop being a parent. A Good Parent is there for them the rest of their lives.
By God's Grace
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