I was raised by my minister parents to marry a certain kind of woman. One of the girls I dated from age 17 to 19 was like this that I thought I was going to marry from church growing up who lived in Los Angeles. But, I wasn't really ready for being married to anyone yet at 17 or 19 (even though many people I knew got married at that age. So, when she wound up marrying someone else I was unhappy about that but knew I wasn't ready to marry her. Years later she asked me why I hadn't told her I loved her then and I told her I wasn't ready to marry for at least another 5 or 6 years and I wasn't going to make her wait because I didn't know if I EVER was going to be ready to marry anyone.
So, as I was going through a divorce in 1994 I met someone like this that was a good person through and through and I realized I had met 'The real deal' in that she was someone worth marrying who was like this girl I wasn't ready to marry when I was 17 to 19 years old.
And through this new wife I found what I had been missing my whole life. Stability and continuity. I finally had met someone that I could see myself going all the way to the end with which I hadn't experienced before in my life. But, remember I was 46 years old before this happened for me too. My life was still complicated because I was trying to get custody of my 5 year old daughter from a previous marriage and then my new wife and I had another daughter too. So, at age 50 my life was still working but complicated too when I got a heart virus and believed I was going to die for 8 months until doctors said I wasn't going to die anymore and could have a normal life because my heart had healed itself from the Heart Virus. In fact, they didn't know for sure what was wrong with me for 8 months which is why they believed I might die and I was forced to retire or die during this time. So, I refused to die because of my 2 1/2 year old daughter and my 7 years older daughter and my by then 20 something son. Within 5 months after finding out I wasn't going to die I flew with my mother who was in her early 80s and my then 10 year old daughter to England and Scotland to show my mother where her parents had grown up near Glasgow, Scotland. We also traveled north to the Cairngorm Mountains where people ski in the winter time there.
We also went to Germany and rented a motorhome and picked up my son and his friend who had been traveling around Europe on a Eurail pass for a couple of months by then. Since the motorhome slept 6 people we had room because there were only 5 of us who traveled together from Munich, Germany to Austria to Switzerland and finally through the Tunnels in the Alps to Aoste, Italy where my son and his friend decided to journey south to the Amalfi Coast and to Rome on their own.
I guess the point of all this is that tonight I told my wife that I have often believed that I died when I had my heart virus and that I woke up in heaven with her and our daughter and my older daughter and this has been my life since then broken up only by my burst appendix 3 years ago and then my bought with Congestive heart stuff where you are drowning in your lungs from Edema out of control to July when I couldn't walk or drive a vehicle for most of July 2018 from a sprained knee from the Walk Run in Mt. Shasta on July 4th, 2018.
But mostly I have experienced living in a heaven sort of with my wife and my daughter and sometimes my older daughter and whenever my son was here( He just moved back from 5 years in South Korea with his wife and son by the way in March) so it's good to have him back on the mainland once again.
But, 90% to 95% of the time My experience has mostly been living in a heaven realm with my wife and two daughters when both were here. Recently my older daughter spent several weeks here with us when she returned from Germany from a Conference there which has been great too.
How does one create a heaven on earth to live in?
I began when I realized it was possible to pray for this in the late 1970s and early 1980s. I guess God granted my request in 1998 when I almost died from a heart Virus for 8 months time. When I recovered I realized (by some miracle) I was financially covered by God to be able to retire. So, God had answered my prayers.
God doesn't answer our prayers in the ways we might think or even choose but God does answer prayers I find. Because "The Lord works in mysterious ways."
He even got me to start blogging like this the month I recovered from my heart virus in the Summer of 1999.
So, I have been blogging because I promised God I would if I survived my heart Virus since summer 1999. The first blog was one I had to program in HTML myself at geocities.com which eventually was bought by Yahoo Business. Then in 2007 I bought a site there and I put most of my longer writings there for more easy access by my readers like you called dragonofcompassion.com
Also, I began this website in Fall 2007 too because I heard good things about this site and because the site goes wherever Google Goes worldwide to almost every country on earth.
So, if you pray for your heaven realm here on earth God might grant you your wish at some point but remember God sees all this differently than you and I do so if you pray be ready for almost anything...
By God's Grace
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