What do I mean by this?
I found it was the social Science classes like Cultural Anthropology, Psychology, Social Science and even Philosophy that actually kept me alive the most between ages 21 and 25. When I began to understand my place in the world I began to develop a plan where I could be happy enough to stay alive and not self destruct like people were doing all around me, (especially during the Viet Nam War). For example, more boys my age died in Viet Nam than any other age. So, if you were born in 1948 you were the most likely to be drafted at 18 sent to Viet Nam where you died the first couple of weeks then because you didn't know how to really stay alive there. You cannot really be taught how to stay alive in those kinds of situations unless you figure it out for yourself. Other people telling you something is not the same thing as actually doing it.
So, the point for me is that the door to staying alive opened for me when I took a couple of Philosophy courses at Palomar College in San marcos. I lived in Rancho Bernardo then with my parents while going to college. Then I took a course in Cultural Anthropology and then I began to realize who I really was by studying Cultural Anthropology. But where it really came together for me was in studying Psychology. That when I actually started to be able to plan my own survival into adulthood without self destructing.
I realized that I didn't have to die and that I could create a life for myself where I would be happy enough to want to stay alive. This began the solutions that I have created or engineered in my life ever since.
Most people try to fit into the world. This was never going to work for me. So, I had to design and build my own world so I could be happy enough to stay alive anywhere.
By God's Grace
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