Even if you are born very intuitive like me we all have a whole lot to learn in life regarding all this

 What I mean by this is: "Were you born riding motorcycles or driving cars or flying planes or piloting boats?  Probably not.

So, even if you are really really intuitive like someone like me you have a lot to learn just to stay alive being as intuitive as someone like me (especially until you are around 30 years old).

There were many times between 12 and 30 when I thought I was going to die. But, strangely enough God and Angels and my intuition always found ways for me to stay alive through everything. 

But, it is very strange to watch people go crazy and die all around you like I often did during the 1950s and 1960s especially. I really didn't feel safe in my body until I was around 30 and had figured everything out enough to know I might live to 100 years old if I was very lucky at that point.

Before this life was pretty insecure and scary a lot of the time.

When I got married and had a son my life finally made some sense to me. People talk about having all these girlfriends (and I did from about age 15 to 25 when I got together with my first wife but it really didn't make me happy taking care of all of these girls and women in various ways.

There was always this feeling of "An accident waiting to happen" and I had this feeling while I was with them that I needed to protect them all which I did to the best of my ability always and I always was a gentleman as I was trained to be and usually all the mothers if all these girls trusted me with them if I met them personally in the process of dating many girls. But, of course in the 1970s people traveled a lot so these girls might have parents in New York City or Europe or wherever on earth so meeting parents likely wouldn't be happening unless the relationship got really really serious but this didn't happen until 1973 for me when I was 25.

I think the best way to put this is that I was in serious relationships (where I was preparing to get married then) from age 16 to about age 21 when all that changed for about 4 years time while I was trying to just stay alive in my body here on earth.

So, the most girls I ever dated during this time where i wasn't sure I wanted to be alive or not from 21 to 25 years old.

During this time I had to find a way to survive my life.

And it finally came to me that i couldn't plan things the way I had because if my plans didn't work out I couldn't deal with the disappointment of this in my life.

So, I started a new way of being which was to only be an opportunist in life which fit in with another saying that my friend saved my life with when I was going through my last divorce in 1994.

Here is this opportunists saying of survival: "There are no problems only opportunities".

If you can take this to heart it can save your life in difficult situations.

I was trying to get rid of the blue so you could read this easier but it didn't want to go away today for some reason. This was likely my first webpage that I created with the help of a female Blogger from Canada who knew HTML better than I did then because I knew COBOL and Fortran and MSDOS and Basic Language. However, by then I think Windows 95 might have been coming out for PCs then

which is a microsoft operating system like MSDOS. However, it was eons easier to use Windows 95 than MSDOS because MSDOS was more techie in nature and more for techies and programmers than anything else. 

So, I first published this likely at geocities.com which is my first website that I had to program completely in HTML myself. There wasn't an encoder like you have here at blogger.com (blogspot) then in 1999 that I knew of 

These are some of the writings I did then to survive my last divorce in 1994:

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I Sing a song of youth truth and beauty I sing a song of sadness and pain I sing a song of forever beloved I sing a song of sadness and pain Why must our youth, truth and beauty be overcome with old age and death Why must we try so hard to remember who we are and what we came here to do So sing your song of youth truth and beauty till you're overcome with old age and death But don't forget each day to meet your maker and give thanks for each day of life For each night we sleep it is like dying and each day we wake we are reborn   Copyright 1999

 

" Three Rock poems" Rocks speak to me tell me of strange things They say time is-does not pass Love comes quickly seeps into painful cracks In soul caresses ROCK PEOPLE "We are your bones The water your blood Your breath the sky.

 

"Miscellaneous ideas" Honey Bear talks to me The tea warms my soul All is well When we are quiet Your presence Heals my soul Innocense and wisdom live together The seeds of being found are in being lost There is more to life than survival If you cannot be man enough to trust yourself You cannot really live at all!

"Einstein" "Imagination is more important than knowledge!"- Einstein This statement is true because knowledge and answers are the same Answers can only be important in one context or one continuum whereas imagination has more to do with asking questions Children should be taught how to formulate useful questions from their imaginations. The ability to formulate useful questions constantly creates answers in all contexts and continuums. However, the horror of paradoxes must be overcome if one is going to continually ask questions The universe is full of a seeming infinite amount of paradoxes and the ability to contain these paradoxes without going mad is necessary to embark on a life path of being a truth seeker no matter where the truth leads. Otherwise one can quickly reach complete confusion born of the seemingly infinite paradoxes one encounters.   Copyright 1999 Note: the following are: New January 8th and a product of having to be quiet for one week with flu. "There is nothing so bad that no good may come of it---." Descartes WISDOM wisdom come during fasting and sicknes Listen when you least expect it wisdom so precious it comes but once LIFE intolerable at times a drudge at others we live for moments of oneness with the Creator our one True Lover Hope Springs eternal If we die daily Peace The key to peace is kindness Prosperity Prosperity comes from giving Peace and kindness to others Prosperous soul Prosperous mind Prosperous body DESIRE Be very careful what you desire You may get it Travel is like a drug everything is new and strange and so are you Happiness Happiness is fleeting contentment is forever Modesty modesty has its place it helps one to survive hard times JOKES To laugh at ones own mistakes is the mark of a great soul to betlittle and laugh at another is the mark of an idiot Bravery to stay alive to old age is the bravest thing that one can do Listening Listen my child to your elders if you would be wise when you grow up Survival years ago I thought survival was burying food in a 50 gallon drum Now I know survival is fasting praying kindness and mercy Aloneness Being an only child aloneness was hard too many vacations-no kids Now I am a man Aloneness is still hard But now I am a new family Sadness Sadness is being human Joy is being alive Happiness is knowing God Heartache If you can live through it it brings wisdom and kindness If not, it brings death Quiet In the quiet I can hear myself think I can know myself, my world, my nature My sadness is how few experience the Quiet For Quiet is Healing! Wilderness Wilderness is my church The church of all creatures Why is the church of all creatures disapearing? Without their church all creatures will die! Ocean The Ocean of kindness of all Beings Gives hope to all who struggle