How I arrived at a Path of Compassion

I think I was raised in a path of Economic and spiritual power by my parents. Though compassion was a factor it wasn't the primary objective in life, survival and physical well being and economic well being was primary. I can see why this point of view is important because if you don't have enough economic well being often you don't have the physical, mental or spiritual well being to have enough mental and physical health while growing up to do anything at all useful with your life ever.

And this harms not only you but everyone you know in various ways.

So, health both mental, physical and spiritual have to become some sort of baseline to get anywhere at all into life.

I think I was sort of going in the direction of a scientist or researcher as a child before I got childhood epilepsy because I started to see all people in religions as sort of crazy.

I think unless you have to go through some sort of psychological or physical crisis you don't become terrified enough in your life to see the value of really believing in something greater than yourself.

So, the terror (for about 5 years of wondering whether the next night time seizure was going to kill me or not) was a lot to deal with between 10 and 15. Also, generally people were very ignorant then compared to now regarding anything to do with epilepsy. So, my father wouldn't allow me to talk to anyone that I actually had this problem about once every 6 months having a seizure in my sleep at night.

So, the process and terror of the experience of (being murdered in my sleep) about once every 6 months and waking up usually on the floor made God seem pretty useful if I wanted to stay alive at all.

So, finally I invoked God (like the prophets of the old Testament) to live directly in my body with me. And he moved in. This completely changed my appearance within 3 months and girls started chasing God who was living inside of me with me.

This was a pretty terrifying experience until I was about 30 and got used to God living in my Body with me like I was married to God. The supernatural experiences were the hardest to get used to all the time waking and sleeping.

In my 20 I began to notice that people on the path I was raised were not always kind to others and this bothered me. So, I began to ask God if something wasn't inherently wrong with the path I had been taught growing up. I eventually found Buddhism and specifically Tibetan Buddhism seemed to suit me the best which believes in Compassion for all beings in the universe.

Finally, I had found a way to be infinitely powerful in all my actions without harming anyone accidentally. As I developed compassion more and more for all beings in the universe I found I wouldn't harm anyone even by accident anymore. I took Ahimsa Vows (the vow to not kill anyone or anything) except in self defense. So, I stopped killing flies and spiders too whenever this was safe to do.

For example, I leave Daddy Longlegs as long as they aren't pregnant or too big to kill all the other spiders inside my home. But, everything else goes outside. If it fights me in going outside too much then I am forced to dispatch it. But, I prefer not to. So, telepathically or verbally or both I will talk to the spider and say "let me take you outside so you can stay alive". But, if it fights me too much for whatever the reason I cannot leave it alive to bite me or my wife or my daughter.

I think the hardest thing to allow to live has to be mosquitos. They have to be the worst. and they are so fragile you cannot really save them. So, if I find big mosquito eaters in my home I usually leave them there to thin out any mosquitos that might make it inside the house.

Note: Daddy Long legs cannot bite through human skin. If they did humans would be extinct now. This is why I leave them usually because they are the most poisonous of spiders in the U.S.

But, if they cannot penetrate human skin they are harmless to us humans.

So, this is an abbreviated view of how I came to the path of compassion.

The path of compassion is also a path of harmlessness.

However, this doesn't mean I don't defend myself in really amazing ways either.