But, because she has three degrees including a master's degree in business and because she is a woman she has this attention to detail that doesn't really interest me in writing.
I'm all about "Stream of Consciousness" which is more about how people write lyrics and songs and story telling. I'm more into substance and she is more into Form in this sense.
I'm trying to get at the essence of all our spirits which if she ever let loose she could really be amazing as a writer.
I started writing to deal with the fact that I'm an only child and as a way to process grief so I don't accidentally or on purpose self destruct.
Not having siblings other than my cousins was in some ways a disadvantage for me. It meant that I always had at least one bicycle and my parents always had at least one car since before I was born and always had nice clothes even if we lived in a rented apartment most of the time growing up or a duplex or a rented house. So, I always had both parents and they didn't drink or smoke so I always had safety and security at home with my mother, father and my mother's mother there always growing up. I was very well cared for indeed growing up because of this. But, not having a brother or a sister means you don't always have peers to talk to at a level that you are presently at. So, writing to myself and reading my writings later was a way to meet all my different selves that I became along the way from about age 8 to now.
My wife wants to start writing more and I told her when I first started writing about Arcane in 1980 in Mt. Shasta I didn't publish anything I wrote for almost 20 years until 1999 after I recovered from a heart virus after almost dying for 8 or 9 months time and being forced to retire then. I was telling her she might write and never publish and just her and me and her kids read what she has written. it's entirely up to her.
I find what I write is always very personal. So, sharing it was very hard to start doing at all. I ONLY did this starting in 1999 at my very first blog site because I had promised God that I would write of all my experiences with God to inspire others to stay alive worldwide when I almost died for 8 or 9 months then in 1998 and 1999. So, I started publishing online in gratitude for God saving my life in 1998 and 1999.
Besides, I realized when I thought I was dying that it was so stupid of me and selfish of me not to share all the amazing things that God had done in my life. If I witnessed these experiences it might save many lives and likely has now. Because this is what these kinds of writings often do worldwide.
By God's Grace
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