When I grew up in my parent's church in the 1950s there was a saying people used to say a lot which was:
"The change is coming!" What this meant to people was sort of like "God was coming and was going to take everyone home" or something like this. It wasn't like Armageddon or anything like that because "The Change" was a good thing.
My older daughter helped me a lot today by helping me sort of understand this more because of the way my father and also my best friend from when I was 6 years old in Church in Sunday School and the way they died.
My point of view (since I left my family's church in 1969 when I was 21 because from my point of view I was just too progressive and too much of an independent Free Thinker to stay there any longer (even though I deeply loved all the people there that I met from around the world growing up in my church).
So, I suffered a lot from 21 to 25. because without my church I sort of wanted to die without all my church friends worldwide until I married and had my son and then my life wasn't really about me anymore but rather to take care of my wife and child instead. This saved my young life then by shifting gears to becoming a responsible father and husband.
But, how my daughter helped me today was sharing with me how my father and my friend were likely both living their principles and dying young because of them.
My father first died in 1985 because he didn't have his prostate take out in 1980 which is what people did then if they had prostate cancer then.
Then my best friend from Sunday school since 1954 in Los Angeles died at age 62 in 2006 because he wouldn't have open heart surgery. So, I felt very abandoned by both of them dying when medically they didn't have to.
But, my daughter helped me a lot because she said how both of them likely died because of the principles they lived by.
But, for me, my point of view is sort of: "Why die when you don't have to?"
But, maybe God made me to live a long time whereas life was really hard for my father and my friend. And in some ways I can see that that is true too.
So, I'm thinking God designed me for a very long life "By the Grace of God"
And "The Change came for my father and my friend and they died because of what they believed in too."
This also helps me deal with people dying of Covid because of their religious beliefs too all across the world. And maybe they are all dying "Because the Change came for them because that is God's timing for them too."
I feel very healed now by this point of view so I'm grateful that my daughter helped heal me in regard to the death of my father, the death of my friend and the death of everyone on earth who has or will die of Covid.
I'm grateful to have this peace because I have been struggling a lot with all of the millions of deaths worldwide emotionally. So. Thank you God for some Peace regarding all the deaths.
By God's Grace
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