It's hard to be gifted

From the outside people look at people who are "Beautiful", super intelligent, physically athletic, or however they are gifted as wonderful or they are extremely jealous of them.

Because they are different than the average person. So, generally speaking it is very difficult to be gifted in whatever way a person is.

For example, I didn't really realize just how intelligent I was until I was in my teens. I didn't realize my father was valedictorian of his High School Class until about the last 10 years or so because my cousin told me this and I realized my Dad hadn't told me this because I had had Blunt Trauma childhood epilepsy from age 10 to age 15 and my father didn't know if I was going to live or die or what at that time. So, I can now understand why he didn't tell me that then because pressure was what tended to generate seizures for me then like when I was worried about a big test at school or things like that. So, psychological pressure might generate an aura which would cause a night time seizure which could be fatal.

Note: "an Aura is when you feel very different sort of not like yourself. It is an indication that you might have a seizure soon when you are an epileptic".

I was lucky because I had blunt trauma seizures caused by a blow to the head which are the only kind people tend to grow out of by about age 15 or 16. So, I have never had a seizure since age 15.

So, I went from being very intelligent to very intuitively intelligent that got developed from trying to desperately survive my seizures which I did.

Then when I invoked God to live in my body with me suddenly God agreed and that moment all my seizures stopped for life as God moved into my body. Within 3 months I looked completely different and girls started chasing me around because God lived in my body.

So, not only was I intelligent, I was also tall and beautiful to look at for girls too. So, I found this pretty confusing because at that point I was pretty shy still. So, I learned to be more outgoing because Girls were always sort of running after me. So, I became their older brother and listened to them and counseled them and helped them with their problems like an older or younger brother. So, they seemed to love me more because of this.

However, all this was both good and bad because I didn't know quite how to deal with all this. It caused me to start dating at age 15 and I always was going steady with one girlfriend or another between age 16 and 21. But, I found it sort of confusing too. It wasn't completely a good thing.

Especially between the ages of 21 and 25 when I was usually physically intimate in most all relationships with women I found this confusing because I would get used to one and then we would break up and then there would be another and another. So, being nice looking can be just sort of confusing because they might think you are a God or something but still you are just a human being with God living inside you.

So, I might be that perfect boy for them for a weekend or so but in the end I was still a human being in the end with both good and bad qualities even though I was always a perfect gentleman by nature and by training.

So, being nice looking and tall and strong and intelligent is both useful and confusing in a variety of ways for someone growing up into manhood.

So, having a lot on the ball and being nice looking isn't always what people think it is. Sometimes it just makes things a lot more confusing and people force their way into your life in a variety of ways.

On the other hand this might be God's plan but still for the human being you are even though it is God's plan it is still hard sometimes to make sense of it all.