I spent a lot of my life studying enlightenment. My parents were into the Saint Germain Foundation so I was born into this. By 5 years of age my parents were put in charge of the Hope Street "I AM" Sanctuary in downtown Los Angeles. So, I was sort of a Minister's (two ministers) son. They didn't have a lot of time for me except on Saturdays and after church on Sundays because they usually were busy Sunday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and sometimes Saturday and if there were fundamentals being taught for 9 weeks or so twice a year they were also gone Monday or Tuesday for 9 weeks straight after we had dinner in Glendale where I grew up from age 8 to 21. Luckily, for them I had a grandmother (my mother's mother who lived with us in Glendale to take care of me and cook for me when they were busy).
I became interested in God, Jesus, Saint Germain and Archangel Michael and other Angels and Masters along the way (even though I wasn't sure that there was a God between ages 10 and 15). (If there was a God why was he killing me with Childhood Epilepsy?). At the time I didn't know if I was going to survive this or not and I didn't know it was childhood epilepsy so my parents were concerned I was going to die or worse until I was 15 and suddenly seemed to grow out of it. I didn't even realized until my son was in Nursing School and Getting his Bachelor's of Science in Nursing that the only epilepsy one can grow out of is Blunt Trauma childhood epilepsy caused by a blow to the head which dents the skull as a child. But, then your cranium gets larger and often the pressure is released from the brain by the time you are 14 to 17 years of age. Interesting.
So, since I wasn't allowed any medications like (Phenobarbital) by my father because he was a minister who didn't believe much in most hospital types of medicine I had to be "Mind over matter" which is how I became so intuitively developed by having to survive childhood epilepsy without dying.
However, when I outgrew it I still had incredibly Intuitive "muscles?" developed so I was very aware and much more so than most people are. I can always tell now who around me is developed and who isn't and who is latent but not developed and who actually uses their intuitive gifts all the time.
So, when I write about stuff like this there is no theory involved here it is completely about my personal experiences throughout my life and other people I have met who are developed too. So, all people are capable of amazing things. It all depends whether people are interested in developing in certain ways or not.
I kind of feel that God forced me to become developed and then I found myself at 15 and 16 having invoked God to live in my body with me (and if you ever really did this you would be pretty terrified of God living in your body with you 24 hours a day) until you got used to it. (If you ever did). Anyway I got used to God living inside my body and if you can get used to it. You know about accidents before they happen and you know about things the people around you need to avoid to stay alive too. So, if you listen to what God shows you you live a really long time and if you are clear enough and people listen to you they live a really long time too if God wills it.
Here are some of the longer things I have written in this vein as a natural and developed intuitive:
- To understand things like Prophetess better please read Memories part 1 through part 11. Memories is the best edited of everything longer that I have written. Also, it is the only thing where there is a beginning, middle and end which is also interesting because Memories is a lot about time travel and reincarnation and enlightenment.
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Though you might want to think of everything I have written as Science Fiction that is not really what I set out to do. Originally, the first section before Elohar and Ragna of "Memories" was written in Mt. Shasta when I lived there as form of therapeutic Science Fiction. However when I believed I was dying and was preparing for my death in 1999 I realized it wasn't fiction at all but a recounting of past lives in the past, present and future. I was given a Phowa initiation by Lama Ayang in Santa Cruz in the mid 1980s. He told us if the initiation took we would remember all the past, lives of the Buddhas and the Bodhisattvas of the 10 directions and the three times. (Ten directions is one way to navigate in three dimensions in space) and the three times are (the past, present and future). So, to Tibetans the past, present and future and all space is available right here right now. So, this is how Tibetan Buddhists deal with reality. However, they would probably tell you that reality is both real and unreal simultaneously and the same for your dreams.
Note: I quoted the wrong initiation there for awhile. I said I had a Ahimsa initiation. Whereas Ahimsa is a vow not to kill anything including insects and animals if you have any other choice. However, self defense I consider important too. For example, I usually don't let black widow spiders, Brown Recluse Spiders or rattlesnakes of any kind stay alive anywhere around people are living.
However, the last poisonous rattlesnake I had to kill was probably about 1968 with a pistol. It was a green mohave sidewinder rattlesnake that is 9 times more poisonous than a Diamond Back rattler. So, if you say you were bit by a rattler and don't tell them is was a little green mohave you will die because you won't get enough anti-venom to survive. It is a little sidewinder but very fatal.
One night my church choir was walking in the desert at a retreat and the whole group walked right over a green mohave in the dark. Luckily, he was too cold to strike or something or too confused by so many people walking over him in the dark. The last person had a flashlight.
This way of looking at things might be very useful if you are living at high altitude (over 8000 feet in altitude in the Himalayas where people can die very easily if they make any mistakes at all.
Anyway, I began to remember literally all the past lives in the past, present and future of Bodhisattvas and Buddhas like he said I would if the initiation took. I found this very confusing for a few weeks until I got used to it after the Phowa initiation. I put spiders outside that are not poisonous to humans if they let me catch them so they can live. I do the same with hornets and flies too if I can catch them.
Now I just feel empowered by this completely almost 30 years later.
In 1985 in December I went with my family to the Kalachakra Tantra given by the Dalai Lama in Bodhgaya, India. I didn't know what it was or that it was happening when I got there. All I knew and my wife knew was that our friend Geshe Lobsang Gyatso (a Gelukpa Geshe) we had met in Santa Cruz, California was going to be there and since we had been in Thailand we wanted to see him in India so we flew to India and met him in Bodhgaya. We also signed up to be given the 4 day Kalachakra initiation which is an initiation into Shambala (a heaven realm) That all Tibetan Buddhists want to receive (from the Dalai Lama if possible) before they die so they wind up in the right heaven.
Anyway, here are some of the things I wrote since I was given the "Thousand Buddha's Empowerment in Ashland, Oregon in 1980. Writing about Arcane was the first thing I wrote about in the Summer of 1980.
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