n
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adj.
Known or understood by only a few: arcane economic theories. See Synonyms at mysterious.
[Latin arcnus, secret, from arca, chest.]
nus, secret, from arca, chest.]
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I remember back when I first wrote about Arcane. At that time I saw what I was writing as a sort of therapy for me. I had always loved Science Fiction and in some ways Science Fiction always made more sense to me than any religion, especially science fiction at that time by Robert Heinlein while I was growing up. I remember one book about twins who were telepaths and one stayed on earth and the other went on a space ship past the solar system and out into the galaxy. The two twins were how the crew stayed in touch with earth because they were telepathic. This always was very true to me that they could do this when technology couldn't. This was my experience too as a child even though I didn't have a twin.
So, at first when I wrote about Arcane it was a way to heal things that had happened in my life to me. So, it was a self therapy session to write all this. Often as I wrote about Arcane it would bring me to tears because it was just so very therapeutic for me to write this. On visits to the Northern California Coast from my home then in Mt. Shasta I began to also write Elohar and Ragna which is about future lifetimes of my mother and father. So, at the time I saw this as healing my relationship with my parents. It's difficult to get out of your childhood and teen years without feeling kind of scathed by what happens growing up even if you have really great parents like I did.
But then, in 1999, 19 years after I first started writing about Arcane and Elohar and Ragna I realized as I prepared for my death that I had been actually writing about a past life in the future that I had already lived. Because in 1980 I didn't believe that reincarnation could be from the future to the present. I still thought of everything as a linear progression forwards and didn't realize fully yet that time has no meaning at all to a soul other than what a soul wants it to mean. But as I opened up my senses for a good death I realized I actually wasn't just being therapeutic for myself, I was also actually writing about my own past lives and the past lives of my family and friends that I have associated with for millions of years past, present and future. So, as one moves through one's life one can learn a whole lot of new stuff (at least for that lifetime). But still, in other lifetimes usually at one point or another you might have known a lot of it before in various different ways. At least this is my experience at this point. And after preparing for death from September 1998 until May 1999 my heart specialist told me that through the process of elimination he realized what had been wrong with me, a heart virus. And that I had been extremely lucky to survive it because most people don't because it is so very difficult to diagnose most people die of panic when they can't breathe. The only reason I survived is that I had learned a disconnection meditation through the Tibetan Lamas and from surviving whooping cough. So, instead of panicking I simply disconnected so I wouldn't just panic and die when I couldn't oxygenate by breathing right. If you panic even once as you pass out, you die.
So after surviving that I had promised if I survived to publish my experieces, I began to publish my Arcane experiences online by calling them "Memories"
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