When my father died in 1985 I was 37 years old and completely not prepared for my father to die. So, because I was almost 40 this sort of shot me into middle aged Crazy so for around 13 years I was pretty upset and nothing and no one really could console me. It even cost me my marriage when my father died. Then I met another lady and had a daughter with her and then I almost died at 50 for 9 months. But, after almost dying for 9 months it completely blasted me out of middle aged crazy to another state of mind that I have mostly been in since 1999 now. And this state of mind is "Being Grateful for each moment of life" left here on earth with my wife and children and Grandchildren and just being alive.
Because of this the best part of my life has been since I was forced to retire to stay alive and then I had this really wonderful attitude which was "I'm grateful for each moment I have left." IN this state of mind it doesn't really matter or not whether you die the next second or live a 1000 years or more because both from this state of mind are equally possible. But, somehow accepting all this brings an amazing peace to ones life and changes everything in one's life. It doesn't mean you never feel pain but it does mean that there is an evenness to your life when gratitude for being alive is the first and the last thing you think every morning and every night.
By God's Grace
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