Writing can be healing whether you publish what you write or not

I first started writing a lot in 1980 with Arcane "Memories". However, I didn't publish anything online until 1999 when I started my first blogsite. Why?

Because I was always afraid to publish what I wrote before then. And even when I did publish online often what I wrote wasn't fully edited. Why?

Because I hate to edit and love to write. If I waited to publish when everything was properly edited it likely would have been after I died by my wife or one of my children publishing it then. So, since what is important to me is not money but rather the ideas I have of my experiences of life I tend to publish rough drafts because I feel my ideas and experiences are important for mankind (those who are interested) to read. Otherwise I never would have gotten a website at GEOCITIES (no longer in existence since around 2009 (all geocities websites are gone now except for a

 https://geocities.restorativland.org/

 website I recently found that has kept copies and links of all geocities websites from back then (2009 I believe). I had this website there from June of 1999 until around 2009 when it no longer existed anymore.

Also, the reason I stopped being afraid was that I believed I might die and it seemed very sad to me at the time if I didn't share my experiences with God and Angels and beings like Arcane and the Galactic Sentience while I was still alive.

So, after I was forced to retire at age 50 rather than die by my doctors I was very ill for about 9 months. So, I remember being at Stanford Hospital next to Stanford University then in Fall of 1998 and hoping I would survive and thinking how stupid it was of me in being afraid to publish what I had written so far as of 1998 and 1999. So, when doctors told me I wasn't going to die because my heart virus and heart had healed themselves (sort of like when my heart got over a flu or something like that for 9 months) then I realized I needed to give thanks to God for saving my life and one of the ways I did  this and have continued thanking God has been  through all my websites ever since. 

By God's Grace