What does finding your voice mean?
It means you need to go with what you know about in real life.
What did I know about?
I knew about the wilderness (at age 32) and I knew about Computer Science and Computer programming, I knew about building houses from my father who was an electrical Contractor and I had already built one home in the desert with my father for he and my mother to retire in. I knew about being a father and what a good family looks like on an everyday basis because I had had great parents.
However, I also had traumas from childhood like whooping cough and a concussion that caused sometimes night time seizures from ages 10 to 15. However, what almost killed me also kept me out of the draft so I was 4F because of my seizures. However, I never really had a seizure after I invited God to come live in my body with me at age 15 and he changed my appearance and I changed a lot too then from age 15 onward.
So, what would I write about?
I had also studied psychology to become a psychologist but that didn't happen because my girlfriend got pregnant while I was going to college and I had to get married and support them financially then. So, my son and my first wife and I started a family together.
These are some of the things I knew about at age 32 to begin writing.
Also, I liked Star Wars and Star Trek a lot and my favorite Authors growing up were Heinlein and Silverburg and Isaac Asimov. I especially like Science Fiction based upon real theoretical Science Fiction like you have especially in Star Trek where it isn't fantasy but just a projection of present day scientific facts into the future.
So, all the things you actually see on Star Trek and Star Wars are actually scientifically possible at this point too.
So, when I began to write about Arcane I thought I was writing something to heal the traumas of my life then at age 32. I had no thought at the time of EVER publishing what I was writing (at least then).
This would have been too terrifying to publish what I had written at that time in my life for a variety of reasons.
However, then at age 50 I got a heart virus and as I prepared for my death I realized that what I had written was actually to help heal all my lifetimes past, present and future and that I wasn't writing fiction at all but rather my intuitive awareness of my own and others past present and future lifetimes.
At this point I realized it might help mankind if I published what I had written at some point when I was forced to retire by God. But, also, I had prayed for the "Leisure to Practice" which means "The Time to Pray 24 hours a day" since around 1980 when I realized it was possible to do this.
Leisure to practice is in likely all religions but that particular wording is from Tibetan Buddhism which I had studied with several Tibetan Lamas from about 1983 onward. However, my first Tibetan Buddhist initiation was in Ashland Oregon, with a Ningma Tibetan Lama in 1980.
So, somehow meeting my first Tibetan Lama began to unlock my memories of the past, present and future.
Here are some of the first things I wrote starting in 1980:
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