if you were wondering why the night feels so unusual:

It's because it's a full moon equinox. I'm not sure this year what all that really means but, when I tried to go to sleep I couldn't tonight around 11 pm and had to get up again even though I was tired. So, what it means to me is sleeping might be difficult. What it means to you might be something different. But, just know whatever it is it likely will pass.