65: Still Alive

Money is not my problem at this point. However, my health is. So, though it is possible I will live to be 100 or more because money isn't a problem my health is. So, compared to the struggle all this was in my 20s and 30s it is sort of laughable at times. But, I'm not laughing at my health. When you have to take at least 2 medicines a day or more just to have some normalcy in your life and then you have to worry about potential side affects of the other 2 or 3 medicines that you sometimes take when you take them it gets either funny or scary (depending on the day). There was a statement I find very appropriate that my father in law used to say, "Getting Old isn't for Sissies". Though it might be out of step with the times we now live in it is still true. Unless you are very brave don't expect to live to old age. This is a given.

So, though I might be brave enough not to panic at times, still it isn't easy and greatly tries my patience. Like yesterday I was starting to get Agro (overly angry bordering on rage) and I was trying to be patient in listening to and talking to my wife. However, since she was valedictorian of her prep school growing up and has 3 college degrees often she is very helpful in figuring out what is wrong. As long as it isn't wrong with her. So, she realized I was on too high a dose of Armour Thyroid. I had never done that before so I didn't recognize the symptoms. Usually I have been on too low a dose. One pharmacist told me that a high dose will make people begin to shake and not be able to sleep at all. I have noticed I don't sleep as much and have been tired a lot lately because of it even though like right now I got up with the dawn (something I almost never do) and watched the beautiful sunrise. So, maybe there are some advantages to this like not being depressed from too low a dose(unless you consider being enraged a positive thing). But right now it is warm enough to have the back door to our back yard open so the dogs can walk in and out of the house and the morning is beautiful even though it is going to be hot today (80's or 90's Fahrenheit) (we left the windows open last night).

So, even when you are taking 2 medicines with one twice a day and then two other medicines periodically 1 to 3 times a week trying to stay on an even keel is difficult. So, timing when I can ride a bicycle or my dualsport motorcycle or other things in my life sometimes is difficult. But, at least I can do these things when I feel well enough to do them. And of course I can write any time I want to which is always a comfort to me to study all the things I'm interested about and to sometimes write about them all too. So, more than anything I realize why so many people retire at 65 if they are not dead yet.