Friday, April 8, 2016

1973

I'm starting way before this year.  In 1950 I got whooping cough and almost died then. In 1958 I got blunt trauma childhood epilepsy which means your skull eventually grows and releases the pressure to your brain that the blow to your cranium caused when you were little (usually by 14 to 16 years of age.

So, even at age 4 I was sort of grown up having had to survive such a horrific thing as whooping cough already. When I got childhood epilepsy and felt like I was being murdered each time I had a night time seizure it was like dying from strangulation and then going unconscious each time. So, life was pretty terrifying and I remember thinking that: "Why was God trying to kill me?" This is what I actually thought at the time. So, believing in God at first didn't seem like a good idea from ages 10 to about 14 because God was trying to kill me. Then one seizure I ran towards my parents room in terror and hit my nose on the open end of the door and broke my nose. I woke up with a pool of my own blood all around my head circling it. My father had a butter knife trying to open my mouth so I didn't choke on my tongue then and die (remember this was around 1962 when people didn't know much about seizures yet compared to now. In fact, the only drug they had to give people was phenobarbitol which was a terrible medicine anyhow so my father forbade me to take this medicine. So, all I had was mind over matter. This particular time when I regained consciousness I leaned against the door with blood caked on my face shaking from the intensity of the experience for about 1/2 hour.

One reason people take medicines now is so they don't have a heart attack and die or have a stroke during a seizure because it is so very intense in it's effects on a human body. However, it is also called the "King's Disease" because often people are extremely intuitive and make good leaders who go through this also, like Alexander the Great and Napoleon Bonaparte.

Because you aren't having a seizure all the time just once in a while usually. The rest of the time you are perfectly normal except you have a highly developed intuition and understanding of people (now here's the rub) as long as you don't take any medicines at all for it.

So, by not allowing me to take any medicines at all my father made me the way I am today in being extremely intuitive. And yet, my seizures stopped suddenly at age 15 when I invoked God to live inside my body with me and never came again. That's one of the reasons why I knew God entered my body then and never left. The other reason is because of incredible ongoing supernatural events in my life without ceasing ever since. It was pretty scary until I was about 30 but then I sort of mellowed out and got more used to being able to save lives in many different ways because God lived inside my body.

So, flash forward to 1973. In 1969 I had been asked to leave the Saint Germain Foundation for awhile because I was too 1960s for them. In other words religions in the 1960s did not like progressive people like myself. This was pretty traumatic for me at the time to be cut off from hundreds of my friends worldwide after being in this religion from birth with my parents in charge of the Los Angeles Church on Hope Street in Los Angeles from 1954 until 1960 when I was 12 when my mother's father died and my Mom had a nervous breakdown because of her father's death at the time.

So, by 1973 I had dated a whole lot of girls from 1969 until 1973. I said to my friends "Maybe my life is going to be a long series of girlfriends in 1973. "But then on Easter 1973 something happened. I met someone I could actually see myself married to. But the problem with this person is she was already married and had a 3 year old daughter. Another friend who had to leave the Saint Germain Foundation and I took this married lady and her daughter to Lake Shrine SRF on Easter 1973. This was a truly amazing experience.

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    After the Easter Service I drove home to San Diego to Rancho Bernardo where Saint Germain appeared to me for the first time.

    I laid down on my bed and was meditating and I felt an overwhelming spiritual power coming into my room. It was so much more powerful than anything I had ever experienced before spiritually that I actually thought I might have a seizure and die (even though I hadn't had one then for 10 years) it was so incredibly spiritually powerful. I got scared and I snapped into a higher state of consciousness so I might survive whatever was happening.

    I grabbed this stupendous spiritual energy and rode it like a Harley Davidson Motorcycle into the sky.

    I heard Saint Germain say to me, "NO. Turn this into the Violet Sacred Flame. So I did as he asked and the energy turned into the Violet Sacred Flame. So, my whole bedroom turned into living flames of violet sacred fire. It was like this for about 1 hours time. I watched black smoke pour out of my heart area as I had been very sad because of a bad breakup with someone I really loved. So, the smoke poured and poured out of my chest from the Violet Sacred Flame. It was probably the best I have ever felt while all this happened in the entire time I had been alive as a human being up until then. After about 1 hour of basking in the violet flame healing me in all ways I noticed a little spark of Violet fire bright like a start if it was violet sacred fire and 100 times or more powerful than the violet flame all around me. As it grew bigger it became the size and face and all of Saint Germain from his belt to the top of his head in this oval of searing violet fire. It was so very powerful that all I could do was to pass out from it's intensity. When I woke up my mind and body had permanently changed into a new person. I felt my brain and mind were completely changed "Born Again" As Christians might say. And I have been a completely different person ever since where Saint Germain and I are like two aspects of the same person.

    This all took place Easter and Easter night of 1973. After this I was drawn to Mt. Shasta. I wanted to take my guitar and write and meditate at Horse Camp Sierra Club Lodge. The lady and her daughter accompanied me to Mt. Shasta and then they got on a bus going home Alaska which was where they were from. I walked up to Horse Camp Lodge but the snow was higher than the roof. So, I found a Snow shovel and dug down to the Big Front wooden door so I could get in to stay the night.  I built a fire at the wood stove and stayed there meditating and playing music and writing for 3 days time in the snow by myself at tree line on Mt. Shasta in about 20 feet of snow. Within a month of this time I got together with another lady who believed in Saint Germain. Within three months of this she was going to have my son and so we got married. When Saint Germain did this my life completely changed from whatever it was before. Before this I didn't ever expect to live to be 25. So, this happened just before I turned 25 and my life changed completely ever since.

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