A Muse

Over the years I have realized my blogs at this site and other since 1999 have had the effect of being A Muse for other writers and artists and musicians. Possibly this is because I don't have to be paid for being creative and they might to physically survive and pay the bills.

So, I have had (since 1999) the luxury of being creative without having to pay my bills being creative which is really a luxury.

However, I have been praying since 1980 for the "Leisure to Practice" which was when I found out that such a thing actually existed. I realized it was possibly to live in a "Heaven Realm" on earth all or some or most of the time where a person could actually be in a heaven like state most of the time.

Back when I was considering killing myself from about 1969 until 1973 what finally prevented me form doing this was something that actually happened around 1970 when a friend of mine, "Bobby Jean" who is clairvoyant like me and a precognitive psychic like me brought down angels for me to "See".

She was trying to tell me that I didn't have to kill myself because I could literally live in heaven here on earth and that it is literally possible to do this.

When you "live with angels' you never need alcohol or drugs because you are "intoxicated" in a good way just being around real angels all the time. So, once she demonstrated this for me around 1970 I realized that it was actually possible to live around angels.

My mother and she were friends from their church and both recognized me as a very gifted person who should stay alive to do what God had intended instead of taking my life.

So, I stayed alive even though at times it was difficult and realized when studying cultural anthropology that I was a "Natural Shaman" which basically means "Someone who had psychologically died but whose body has not died so that person can literally commune with both the living and the dead all the time.

So, at the time one reason I wanted to take my own physical life was that I was "Already dead" because my life had been murdered.

But God had other plans for me like being a muse for creative people who need to make a living doing creative things. Whereas God has provided well for me so I have the time to help my family, my friends and all of you.

By God's Grace